This is getting really hard.

[The Joker]

Every day for a long time (months) I have thought about killing myself at least once. It's getting really hard to operate when that's all I think about.

[XxHaViiK]

You need to get away from what's causing the problem. It's your dad that causes it, correct? Is there nothing you can do to get away from him?

[The Joker]

You need to get away from what's causing the problem. It's your dad that causes it, correct? Is there nothing you can do to get away from him?

The problems I'm getting are coming from my only two options of home living. Either I go to my dad's, or my abusive step dad.

The range of emotions I'm feeling and how intense they are, I don't know if I can deal with this. One moment I'm the happiest fucker on Planet Earth, the next I would kill myself if I had a gun nearby.

[Magus]

One moment I'm the happiest fucker on Planet Earth, the next I would kill myself if I had a gun nearby.
We all had our suicide moments(mine was as silly as it can be), but I never acted on it. I have dreams to fulfill -- always in my head "now is not the time to die".

[XxHaViiK]

Martha, just out of lightly being curious, are you religious?

[The Joker]

Martha, just out of lightly being curious, are you religious?

Naw, been an atheist since the Summer.

[XxHaViiK]

Ok, that's alright. Well, I'll just say what I was gonna say anyways. Through out my life, I've gone in and out of religion, and at the moment I don't know what to believe. But I do think we live for a reason. I tried to kill myself once, .12 gauge shotgun. I loaded round, cocked the gun, pulled the trigger with the barrel in my mouth and nothing happened. For some weird reason, it misfired, and I didn't have the energy to try again. Did "God" if from happening, not likely, but maybe.

No one should have to reach a point like that, and I really encourage you to inform authorities about what's going on.

[JunkBondTrader]

Your living options must be tough and I can see how, from your perspective, there's no way out. But they're going to change any minute now! There is light at the end of the tunnel. One day you'll move out, get your own place, alone or with friends, and cutting everything off just because of what's going on right this minute really is a waste.