Oh mommy...

[Bath]

this forum means a lot to me. It's distracted me from cutting, given me good advice, and I've made friends here. But, I got bad grades, so my mom is going overboard and taking away computer time. She said she shouldn't even give me any time on the computer at all until my grades go up.

But I NEED this forum, you know?
But I dont want to tell her about it.
Plus, the internet is an escape. She took away the keyboard so that when I got home I couldn't go online.. so what do I do? Think about bad things and I cut again. Fuck.

Ugh.

[Rutherford The Brave]

Think about the things, you need to get done first. Then think of the things you want, and think you need. You need to pass school, it is what it is.

[Bath]

I'm so unstable.
This forum has been working to help me feel better... I really wish I could just go on it fucking once a day, 15 minutes even, at the least. :/

[Rutherford The Brave]

The site can't be your crutch, sadly.

[1_21Guns]

At some point you will have to learn to support yourself without the aid of here, but you can take the things you learnt from here and use it in the future. For many this place becomes a support, but someday we will have to move on from it if we want to get anywhere in the future. Take it as a challange, you haven't cut before, so why should you start now.
I'm sure your mother will give you back the keyboard so you can go online sooner or later, and you could always go online on your phone if you need to that bad.
You can carry on without for a little while, I'm sure it will only be temporary
:hug3:

[Bath]

I'm just an immature little girl a lot of times and get attached easily. This site has helped me more than stupid therapy. I'm understood.. So I guess I just like it a lot.

[Rutherford The Brave]

I can help you, if you need it. Just pm me.

[polkagurl]

tell her you need the computer for school. have the "website" prepared to what you are supposively "studying" and than have this website open as a tab. i love this website too but if you actually need it i get where you are coming from so just use those excuses! also - i am sure you will be stable soon enough. if a forum like this is helping you, you are on the right path ! :) be strong and don't give up ! you know you can do and you have to believe in yourself ! good luck hun

[XxHaViiK]

Polkagirl beat me to it, dang it. When I was younger I'd get grounded a lot, because apparently I was just a shitty little worthless pain in the ass. I'd tell them I needed the computer for a project or report, and when they weren't looking, get on forums, fan bases, etc.

[The Joker]

this forum means a lot to me. It's distracted me from cutting, given me good advice, and I've made friends here. But, I got bad grades, so my mom is going overboard and taking away computer time. She said she shouldn't even give me any time on the computer at all until my grades go up.

But I NEED this forum, you know?
But I dont want to tell her about it.
Plus, the internet is an escape. She took away the keyboard so that when I got home I couldn't go online.. so what do I do? Think about bad things and I cut again. Fuck.

Ugh.

I totally get it. This forum has helped me because for a long period of time I wasn't going through therapy whatsoever. Like it was suggested, try and have it under a hidden tab. This might be more motivation for you to do better in school, though, because if you do you'll help yourself feel better about your grades and help yourself by being able to use this site for your problems.