Nevermore
January 3rd, 2011, 11:33 AM
So when my parents got into a huge fight and my mother ended up with a bloody nose, my initial reaction wasn't terrified like I usually am, it was trying to hold in laughter. When I retreated to my room I couldn't stop laughing. I felt so insane. Why was I laughing? There was absolutely nothing funny about this situation. In fact I was emotionless until much latter when I finally broke down. I've never heard my mother scream like that before. It sounded as if she was being murdered. My sister and I were contemplating calling the cops, but in the end we decided not to. This was the day after Christmas. We thought it would be best not to get authorities involved, however my friend kept trying to convince me to call them. However no one was 100% positive the bloody nose was from my dad hitting her. He's never hit her. He's hit me a lot in the past, my sister not as much as me, but a decent amount. My mother he's never hit before. Plus she had a cold, so like they both told us it could've been her screaming that made her nose bleed. I still find it hard to beleive though. I'm still angry at my dad over the incident. I ended up getting screamed at for coming down the stairs to make sure she was ok, and for not cleaning the house when I was never asked. I just want to be over the incident, but its easier said then done. :/ Every incident I've gone through is like that. I keep replaying it over and over in my head. It's sad. I just don't understand why I laughed. :( It scares me. I coulnd't control my laughter either. I was uncontrollable, and just so messed up on so many levels, and I feel awful for laughing.