A bit... unemotional.

[Alexithymia]

How long does this constant addiction go on for? Every time something bad happens, will I want to go back to SH? Am I just screwed for life? Or do I have a reason for stopping? Do I know that once I stop this constant tug will be less? I don't know. It just seems like now, even though I'll stop, I'll want to continue to cut.

Sorry bout the rant. Those questions are probably too deep for anyone to accurately answer.

[StrawberryCyanide]

I promise you, it gets better. I havn't cut for 2 months and i do still get the urge but not nearly as often or as bad. Just stay strong and keep trying, one day SH will be your past not your present. Good luck :) x

[Magenta]

I feel the same way. I often feel that I don't even have a reason for cutting. I'll just do it if I'm bored. To be honest, I like seeing blood. I think it's fascinating. So there's that terrible tug all the time to cut and it's true... how do we know if it will ever go away?

I hope we both find the answers we want somehow. We can encourage one another to stop but in the end, we'll end up doing what's best for ourselves. *nod* Hopefully it's stopping but you never know. I'm not pro-SH, I'm just saying, there's a chance we may just continue.

Sorry, that probably was not very helpful. Just sort of thinking out loud.

[Alexithymia]

Meh. It's fine. Kind of how I'm thinking right now. I hope it does get better. And I can relate. I love seeing the blood too. It's... soothing.

[Magenta]

At least we both know that there is a community here that understands and is as supportive as it can be. I think I may have been much worse off without being able to surf the forums here. *nod*

[1_21Guns]

You can talk to some people, and they'll tell you it never really goes away, then you can talk to others and they'll tell you the opposite. It's generally down to yourself as to how much it goes away. Eventually you do get to a point where your urges aren't half as frequent, end of the day you won't ever stop if you never try, and you're bound to fall back sometimes but you just have to pick yourself up and keep fighting. When the worlds giving you a million reasons to hurt yourself, you're far better off telling it where to go.
Good luck

[Alexithymia]

Thanks. I guess you're right. It's all a matter of perspective.