Getting careless.

[Magenta]

I'm not even bothering to hide it anymore. I'm doing it out in public (not obviously though) and I just don't care. I don't see the point of hiding it. I've had so many close calls. I don't want to lie anymore about how I got the scars on my arms and hands or why there are little scratches on my fingers. I'm tired of it. Why should I hide something that at this point makes up a large part of me? I'm not afraid of being isolated at school or something... I already am. As for teachers and staff... I'm already in therapy. I'm not telling other students to hurt themselves. They can't do anything.

I don't know. More of a rant than anything.

Still regretting getting rid of my main tools. Found something else that's not really something I can get rid of. I feel like I was getting much better but then I just lost the motivation.

[closed]

Well, this reply isn't gonna explain why you shouldn't do it, but b4 i start: it's not good. It is bad, and you should stop.

IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT!!! - YOU SHOULD HIDE IT.
Once some public ppl (like teacher, or anything of this kind) notices that, they most likely put it in your psychological record. It means byebye any college\university\anything else. It will ruin your life. So if you don't stop - hide it.
I've been through it - it's scary, and it's a danger to your entire life. Both physical, and to your future.

If you ever need to talk, just contact me :)

[Magenta]

I've already been to a hospital and I know this could just send me back but... I don't know. That will probably (and might have) ruin my chances at normalcy later in life anyway. I don't care.

[RAWWR]

Actually, i'm gonna disagree with Aidan, if you feel comfortable with it, don't hide it, well, not the scars, I reccomend that you keep fresh cuts coverd, but those scars are part of your body that are never gonna go away, and the sooner you learn to live with them the better, Having self harm scars, or even still self harming, will not affect your college or university options, unless at the time they think you are too unsafe to attend, if they refused you a place because of it that would be classed as discrimination, which is illegal. I am currently attending college, and they have full knowledge of every single suicide attempt, all of myself harm, and contact with the police.
If you feel like it's the right thing to do, and are comfortable with it, then go for it, good luck :)

[Magenta]

I'm just being silly. Prolly shouldn't have posted this anyway.

[RAWWR]

You aren't being silly, I think everyone who self harms goes through the dilemma of wether or not to wear short sleeves! I used to, but then my self harm got worse again and I haven't got up the courage to do it yet....

[Magenta]

I just don't like having to lie. I think it kills me more than the self-harm does. The fact that I can't just admit to the world that I have a different way of coping because I'm scared of other people's reactions isn't right. I shouldn't have to sit through a lecture about how self-harm is bad every time someone DOES find out.

It's an addiction that never should have happened to me. I just am so sick of hiding because of it. I'm not even making sense now.

[RAWWR]

No, you are making sense, Like I said, keep fresh cuts hidden because, well it's not really fair on anyone to have to see that, but your scars are part of your body, and do you really want to spend the rest of your life keeping them coverd? If you feel ready, then the sooner you get it out in the open, the sooner you yourself will accept your scars and be able to move on from this.

[Magenta]

*nod* Thanks.

[RAWWR]

Thats ok :)

[Syvelocin]

After a certain point, I gave up on long-sleeve shirts and arm warmers. I wear short-sleeve shirts all year-round. The only time anyone has ever said anything other than my family is when I used to cut my arms, they'd ask how I got a couple fresh ones. But I don't cut my arms anymore, only my legs, because it got a bit too bad and I didn't want to screw up my arms anymore, especially since I have aspirations of acting and it's a bit easier to request stockings than to request the outfit be changed to a long-sleeve.

I hide my legs, but I don't hide my arms. I say, don't hide it if you don't want to. I take pride in them. Not in a glorifying way, but in a sort of "I've been here and gone through this," kind of way, if that makes sense.