Moving on?

[FullyAlive]

I know that this is probably going to sound stupid but well my uncle died a little over 2 months ago and it was a shock, I still really miss him. My life seems full of events that he should have been at but isn't. Its made my self harming a lot worse too :/

Anyway it's a new year and for some reason this is really upsetting me. This year will have never known my uncle and I find that so hard to believe.

And I'm scared it's a new year now, a new start everyone but immediate family should have moved on right?

But I can't forget him he's in my thoughts everyday and I still feel so lost and alone without him. But also I don't want to move on what if one day I can't remember all those private jokes we had or the hours we spent together, without them I'll lose him all over again! I can't do that, I still love him!

[MadManWithaBox]

I don't think(personally) you ever get over things like that. But you get used to it. You think, would your uncle have wanted to live your life grieving for him forever? Or would he have wanted you to go out, and live your life, for him, so he can see how far you can go?

[Fiction]

My granddad died in September, so nearly 4 months ago. I know how you feel. It's ok to be upset, and to cry about it, but time will heal. You just have to give it time :)

[JunkBondTrader]

You sound like the two of were really close so it doesn't sound stupid at all. Just because you're not immediate family doesn't mean you can't be devastated when he dies. I live with my uncle and can't imagine how sad I'd be if he passed away.

But keep in mind, the year is just an arbitrary number. Sure, 2011 will never know him but you always did. So keep a positive mind, keep him alive in your thoughts and most of all, stay strong!

[FullyAlive]

Thanks all of the advice really helped me realize that a new year doesn't mean he'll be forgotten and that it's ok to still be sad.
Firstly I'm going to try my hardest to give myself time before I expect myself to be ok, then I'm going to make sure that I keep his memory alive because he deserves it and finally I'm going to get better, stop cutting and do well in my life so that I can make him proud of me.