I know this is messed up.

[Fiction]

I feel guilty. Really guilty, for eating the amount I did today. I know there isn't any possible way I could have eaten less without my parents noticing something but still :/

I didn't have any calories until 7pm. My dad had made me a cup of tea- with milk, and made me have something to eat. I had the smallest piece of toast I could cut with a smidge of butter- 100 calories.
Then we went to the cinema and I had to take some popcorn when i was offered, or they'd get suspicious- 50 calories.
Then we had dinner. It was beef and potatoes. I had the smallest piece of beef there- 250 calories.

So 400 calories. And I feel shit. I must be getting worse :/

I'm sorry this is a really pointless and boring post. I don't even know why I posted it. Sorry.

[Alexithymia]

Don't be sorry, Kathy. Sure, it was more of a rant than a cry for help, but isn't this what VT is for? And for how little you ate, I would love to help, but I have no clue how to help you. Maybe go to your GP and talk to him about this.

[Fiction]

Fml. Martini and lemonade too. I wonder how much that has in it. ¬¬

[Alexithymia]

Don't look it up. :)
Edit: And guess small.

[Fiction]

Thanks Mark :) I'm being made to eat today :/ My parents don't understand.

[Daniel_]

You think thats a lot? Your crazy.

Your perfectly fine the way you are, just eat until your full and just eat healthy. Thats all that matters, your fine. You shouldn't worry about these things so much, theres really nothing to worry about. ;P

[Fiction]

You think thats a lot? Your crazy.

I know I am.

[Daniel_]

I know I am.

Lol but crazy is fun ;D

400 calories is probably less than what you should be taking in daily anyway. How tall are you if you don't mind me asking?

[Oby.]

I feel guilty. Really guilty, for eating the amount I did today. I know there isn't any possible way I could have eaten less without my parents noticing something but still :/

I didn't have any calories until 7pm. My dad had made me a cup of tea- with milk, and made me have something to eat. I had the smallest piece of toast I could cut with a smidge of butter- 100 calories.
Then we went to the cinema and I had to take some popcorn when i was offered, or they'd get suspicious- 50 calories.
Then we had dinner. It was beef and potatoes. I had the smallest piece of beef there- 250 calories.

So 400 calories. And I feel shit. I must be getting worse :/

I'm sorry this is a really pointless and boring post. I don't even know why I posted it. Sorry.

You posted on VT because you want advice/help.

And hold on... You only ate 400 calories? Don't starve yourself, and don't binge. Eat normally. Eat healthy. You're supposed to have like 2000 calories a day, aren't you?

[Syvelocin]

You posted on VT because you want advice/help.

And hold on... You only ate 400 calories? Don't starve yourself, and don't binge. Eat normally. Eat healthy. You're supposed to have like 2000 calories a day, aren't you?

Sorry, but you're telling her to eat normally? :/

And depending on your body type, 2000 calories might be too much. It all depends on your weight/height/age as to how many calories you should eat. 2000 is too much for my body, for instance. Though I do need to gain weight, if I ate 2000 calories every day, I'd be gaining 1+ pounds every week. Too fast for me :/

[Fiction]

I'm 5"4. I weigh 98lb, and i'm 15. That help?
I ate 700 calories today. I feel horrible. If i've not lost weight tomorrow I know i'm really going to hate myself.

[Philleeep]

I'm 5"4. I weigh 98lb, and i'm 15.

Wow creepy im the exact same. Don't worry eat what your comphoratble with. Never eat more than you can, you will be sick. You shouldn't be forced into eating anything that you dont want to.

[Alexithymia]

But if they don't force her then she will barely eat anything. Try and not count calories, Kathy. It only makes it worse

[Daniel_]

I'm 5"4. I weigh 98lb, and i'm 15. That help?
I ate 700 calories today. I feel horrible. If i've not lost weight tomorrow I know i'm really going to hate myself.

Wow! You are insanely underweight, you should at LEAST be eating close to 1,000 calories a day. And don't hate yourself, you'll be treating your body right by eating that much. Besides, awesome people shouldn't be hated. By anyone, even themselves.

[Alexithymia]

For some reason, most awesome people hate themselves. Confuses the hell out of me. Keep eating, Kathy! Stay safe!

[bmr11]

shittt I hav the opposite problem my ass cant eat enough. What I try to do is focus on something other than eating and get my parents focused on something different so that they forget all about my nutrition. Well I guess the second part was my way of sneaking more food to eat but hopefully u can get what im saying. :D lol

[Fiction]

I don't want to eat. I was better for a while. I ate for a while and it's all come back even worse. I don't want to be the ill fucked up kid but i can't get it out my head that i'm not good enough, and that somehow loosing more and more weight will help. I want to loose weight so much that i'm thinking of point blank refusing when my parents ask me to eat. I don't care if they know, I just can't eat, but then they'll make me eat. I don't know what to do.

[Daniel_]

I don't want to eat. I was better for a while. I ate for a while and it's all come back even worse. I don't want to be the ill fucked up kid but i can't get it out my head that i'm not good enough, and that somehow loosing more and more weight will help. I want to loose weight so much that i'm thinking of point blank refusing when my parents ask me to eat. I don't care if they know, I just can't eat, but then they'll make me eat. I don't know what to do.

You should eat. Eating is healthy, and eating the right foods will make you lose even more weight then not eating at all. Thats fact, so if you really want to be skinny and look your best, eat, but watch your portions and eat things like lean meat and vegetables. If you can pull yourself to do that for a while, physically you should feel and look much better.

[Fiction]

It's ok. I've planned out my nest few days.

[Magenta]

You know what, Kathy? I'm not going to tell you to eat or say you should. I'm just going to stick with something simple.

You are an amazing, beautiful person. You've replied to my threads and have given me hope. Anyone who does that cannot possibly be a bad person or not be good enough. You should feel proud of how you try to help people. And in the end, you'll end up treating yourself as nicely as you treat others. That may not be for awhile but for now? Just remember how much I- and the rest of VT- love you. :)

[Fiction]

Aww thanks Jo :) That actually made me smile. :)

[Magenta]

I'm glad. I hope you feel better soon in some way. You deserve it.

[SilenceForSilence]

Yeah I think you shouldn't be counting calories. I'm not gonna tell you what to do but I think if you eat until you're satisfied - not necissarily full, you'll be fine, and probably a lot healthier. Honestly you could probably benefit from gaining a few pounds. I feel like you may be a little underweight. Don't worry about not being good enough. Not to be a creeper but you are really beautiful and your physical appearence matches your awesome caring personality. It's ok to eat. You'll feel a lot better physically, I'm sure. If you're worried about gaining too much weight that's ok. Just be careful with your portions and don't gorge out on junk food. You're really smart. I know you can eat healthier without going overboard. I think you should at least try. I'm worried about you. Message me if you want to talk. :)

[Fiction]

Thanks John, and everyone else :) You're replies really are appreciated :)