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Meaningless-Darkness
December 31st, 2010, 12:44 PM
It has been over two week since i last cut myself. It has been hard, but not as hard as it is proving to be today. Life is not being kind to me at the moment. After recently losing my job, the roof over my head is now in danger of being lost. The thought of being homeless for the second time this year is unbairable! I cant stand the thought of dealing with another year of this ****!!! Specially as im going to have to see the new year in by myself.
Im not worried about cutting as ive done it loads of times before. Im just worried that i might cut to deep. As before ive always had something to live for and now my last hope is gone.
Fiction
December 31st, 2010, 01:02 PM
There is always something to live for. If you look hard enough, you can always find something.
Maybe you should try and get help? Go and see your GP and tell them about your self harm and how you are feeling.
It sounds like you're going through a tough time at the moment but things can get better.
2 weeks is amazing, keep going :)
Good luck.
FullyAlive
December 31st, 2010, 01:49 PM
I'm so sorry that you're feeling that way but you're never alone you have me and everybody else on VT!!
I agree with Kathy I think you should look into some kind of help to get you through this difficult phase in your life.
And again two weeks is so good! You should remember that when you start to think about cutting and just remind yourself you made it this far!
Good luck I hope things get better for you :)
Meaningless-Darkness
December 31st, 2010, 10:28 PM
Thanks :)
I have tried to get help, but my doctor just doesnt listen to me any more which is strange as she diagnosed me with bipolar last year.
Im feeling a bit better now and managed to stay strong and not hurt myself. Think it just all got on top of me and then with the chance i might have had to spend new years by myself, which is more than enough to make me feel uncared for, but i distracted myself and went to the sea side. The drive was enough and when there i was away from my tools so i didnt have a choice.
So glad i have this site now, its so nice to get it out.