Help... Suicidal

[Alexithymia]

Horrible title, I know. And I may end up asking to delete this... I feel horrible for posting. Enough about this... To the point.

I'm feeling suicidal. And not just like wanting to wish it would all end... I have a plan. I don't know the date, but if I do, I'd probably do it around New Years. I don't know what to tell you, VT, except... Help? The only thing that keeping me alive right now is that I know my mom would feel worse... But sometimes she acts like she wish I just killed myself. I don't want to die, but I do. I really just want to go away and have absolutely nothing. I just look at my future and wonder what I might become. But when I realize I have nothing... I could just do it right then. I feel bad posting this... Delete if needed.

[nick]

Mark I know some of those feelings, there are times when I just want everything to be over, but there is always a future. Please find someone you trust and can tall to, I'd be happy to talk if you think I might help.

[SilenceForSilence]

Don't feel guilty for posting this. There is NOTHING WRONG with asking for help. You are very young. Any of us on this forum are, but let me tell you there is so much you'll miss out on if you do this. I know you can find a way to see the good in life again. I can talk to you about anything if you will. Thanks. Be safe.

[Fiction]

Don't feel guilty about posting this at all, we are here to help. Mark, the fact that your posting this shows that you don't really want to die, you just don't want to live under your current circumstances. I know i've felt like this before and it is a horrible feeling, but it will get better.
Your life will change, you're only 13, you have so many life changes ahead of you. So many things that can change for the better and make you glad to be alive :)
You know where I am if you need me. :)