Malcolm Tucker
December 29th, 2010, 01:50 PM
I go down the shops fairly often. Double daily usually. For menial things like milk, the newspaper and so on. But yesterdays' trip was different. See, I came back up my driveway, all was normal. I had my iPod playing, and had my keys all ready to open the door. Normal. But it wasn't.
I opened the door into the porch, and stopped, suddenly. My head wouldn't let me move. I looked down at the two mats on the floor - one black, then a green one after it. They've always been there. Nothing out of the ordinary about them. Except I thought there was. I just suddenly though "If I step on the green mat, a bomb will go off in the house". It took me three whole minutes (a song's length on my iPod) to decide to go in. I had to jump over it. I was shaking and didn't go out again until this morning. I was 100% sure that a bomb was going to go off. This has never happened in my porch before. No fear of door mats (it's okay, laugh at that prospect), or anything.
So, upon reflection I think it was a psychotic moment. I have had delusions before, and do quite regularly, but they're not of this nature like, none really putting a "what if" in my head - usually I see things ACTUALLY happening. I didn't see anything happen. I just was convinced a bomb was there.
So, yeah...
Thoughts please?
I opened the door into the porch, and stopped, suddenly. My head wouldn't let me move. I looked down at the two mats on the floor - one black, then a green one after it. They've always been there. Nothing out of the ordinary about them. Except I thought there was. I just suddenly though "If I step on the green mat, a bomb will go off in the house". It took me three whole minutes (a song's length on my iPod) to decide to go in. I had to jump over it. I was shaking and didn't go out again until this morning. I was 100% sure that a bomb was going to go off. This has never happened in my porch before. No fear of door mats (it's okay, laugh at that prospect), or anything.
So, upon reflection I think it was a psychotic moment. I have had delusions before, and do quite regularly, but they're not of this nature like, none really putting a "what if" in my head - usually I see things ACTUALLY happening. I didn't see anything happen. I just was convinced a bomb was there.
So, yeah...
Thoughts please?