I'm Scared.

[REGRET]

I'm startng to get scared about my cutting.

Before I cut because something shitty had happened at school or I was mad or something. Now I just do it, it isn't even emotional anymore.
I have a good life now. Good friends and everything, the why should I countinue to cut?
Some days I'm trying to love life and some days I do love life. Fuck, I don't know anymore.

Sorry for the rant, I just get worried about myself sometimes.

[Njathind]

Well maybe you have an addiction? If your cutting just for the sake of it then I would reccomend getting some help of some sort, be it from a friend, teacher, parent or relative. If you wanna talk just PM or VM me, I'm always here for anyone, day or night.

Hope your ok. :whoops:

[Fiction]

Like Nat said, cutting is an addiction so it's likley you are addicted to it and this is why you can't stop.

[spfreak]

You're addicted to the cutting and that's why you're having a hard time stopping. Try setting small goals for yourself to cut back on the cutting. After a while if this doesn't work, then maybe getting help would be a good choice. Good luck!

[REGRET]

I try to tell myself "Love life, you're alive and that's the most important" but sometimes it just doesn't work.

[Love.Hate]

Im like this sometimes, never seem to have a reason.. I did at first like you. But now.. not so much. Its an addiction as all the others say, dont get trapped in a routine,
Try to resist as much as possible, Good luck :)

[Mike321]

Like the others have said really, its probably becuase its an addiction.
I do the same sort of thing as you, I used to have a reason to cut, but quite often I just do it for no reason at all.
Try not to let it trap you, maybe talk to someone close to you about it

[REGRET]

I'm so scared to talk to anybody about it. I know no one will understand. My family will just tell me to stop the nonsense and my friends will just tell me to stop.

It looks like this is a battle that I have to fight on my own.

[MadManWithaBox]

Trying to fight this alone is the worst thing you could do. Talk to someone. A school counsellor, or a therapist, and that's how you'll beat this. PM me anytime.

[Njathind]

I'm so scared to talk to anybody about it. I know no one will understand. My family will just tell me to stop the nonsense and my friends will just tell me to stop.

It looks like this is a battle that I have to fight on my own.

No its not, If you want you can talk to me, I understand, but talking to someone face to face will be so much more beneficial. I know it seems daunting at first but it will help you so much. Is there not a councilor or teacher you can talk to at school?

[REGRET]

We have a counsellot but she doesn't have like a psycological education, and I want to talk to someone who has been throught these things or have an education in it.
There are so teachers I could talk to, but thy would tell my parents, and as I said before I know they wouldn't believe me if I say I felt bad...

[Meaningless-Darkness]

I cant say anything that hasnt been said before, but im here if you want to talk about it. I have given up cutting a few times and even managed to give up for 3 1/2 years last time and i understand how hard it can be, but it does get easier!

[Invisible Heroine]

I don't have much to say but I'm here if you want someone to talk to.

[REGRET]

It's been about four or five days since I cut last so I'm making progress. Thanks everyone, it helps having someone to talk to :hug3:

[Magenta]

Four or five days is amazing! There have been times that, for me, four or five HOURS was a big deal. You can get through this. You have an entire forum community that loves you and supports you. Best of luck!