The only person I ever loved or will love is moving.

[Grant]

[TL;DR at bottom, don't read unless you're in a hurry or have a reading disability!]

I'm bisexual so no need to ask about that or anything.

Anyway my best friend/the only person I EVER will love (don't say I'll love again, you don't know that for sure) is moving 40 minutes to an hour away (depending on traffic of course), 45 miles about by highway. He doesn't know that I love him but he does think of us as friends, not best friends or anything, just normal 'Hey i'll see you at lunch' or 'what's up?' friends. He would never want to hang out with me :/. I tried to get him last year, at the beginning of the year last year (he moved here 2 summers ago from his first house, so this upcoming moving will be his 2nd moving, and he's going to keep moving every 2 years) by get him I meant keep him as my best friend so we could hang out a lot. Honestly, he acted gay and I thought he was, but I can tell that's just because he was used to his old school which of course by my school's standards were "gay". He wasn't, and we ended up being what we are now, occasional friends that just talk often and help each other if the other needs it, not like a "HOLY BALLS WANNA COME HAVE SEX AFTER SCHOOL?" or anything friend.

I'm already depressed even though I have another week or two and I'm trying to make it the best fucking week of my life. I don't want him to move.

The only communication I will have with him is facebook (horrible source of communique, he's only on every 3-5 days, sometimes less than once a week, and only for a few mintues), and texting. I would certainly go insane if I didn't have any communication.

I know he's going to have a hard time at the new school even though he seems to be happy about it, their school is 4x the size of his current one, and ~2x the size of his first one. That's up to 4x more people in every class, 4x the building size (and believe me holy shit the school building there is HUGE, bigger than you could imagine). And the people there are mostly rich dbags and he's a poor-well his parents have a fuckton and a half of money but they never buy him anything, and sometimes don't buy him food :(-, underweight, and weird-acting (not by my standards, just seems like everyone else assumes he's mental or something) boy that will definitely get beat up if he doesn't either stay neutral or fall in QUICKLY, like in a few minutes, to a crowd of kids.

I need advice, support, anything, ideas to make me a better friend to him or maybe have the best fucking week of my life. Thanks! :) :whoops: :(

One last thing I have to mention is I've moved on to being happy for him, he seems happy moving so I support it fully, but that doesn't mean I won't miss him and go insane. Some days when he's sick at school I go home because I can't stand being without him at school.

[TL;DR] Friend moving, I love him, he just thinks we're friends, he has no idea I love him, I'm going to miss him, he would never want to hang out or anything. Need advice/support/whatever.

[Fiction]

I can't say that you will love again for certain, but neither can you say you will never love again for certain. Falling in love again is much more likely than not.
Having someone close to you move away can be very upsetting, but you do get over it. I know it really seems like you won't, but you will, it just takes time.

[Grant]

Another thing is my life was going to shit before he came along, every other day at school I'd become dangerously close to being expelled, and since I've met him I haven't even had detention. If he leaves now, then certainly I'll go well below the baseline that I was before I met him. He gave me a reason to live, to try, and to get up in the morning. When he moves I can guarantee I will be far worse than before I met him within a couple days.

[Grant]

So that's it for the comments, no one wants to help?

[Fiction]

I commented didn't I? Nice to see it's appreciated.
You said you still have some communication, it may not feel like enough, but at least it's some. It's up to you to keep yourself out of trouble. You've proved that you can do it, now you just have to keep it up. You probably use causing trouble at school as a coping method so maybe you should find something else to use as a coping method, to stop you getting expelled.

[Grant]

^ Like what?

[Fiction]

Writing, drawing, playing a musical instrument, singing, anything you enjoy doing.

[Grant]

^ Well... I love riding horses and that always makes me forget my problems, but my parents won't buy or lease me one and I can only ride maybe once every other week.

[Fiction]

Ah :/ Is there a riding club or something nearby that you can join?

[Grant]

Well I take lessons but that's once a week at best, sometimes a break of a month or two. And it sucks ass because I literally don't give a fuck about anything when I'm with horses


'cept the horses of course

[The Joker]

"or will love"

You have to be more open about meeting new people. With this perspective, you will not be able to love anyone else because you are shutting others out.

[Grant]

^ That's because there's no need to move on. This person needs me and I can see that. If someone else needed me that bad and does something to make me like them, then I'll love them. But that's a once in 4,000,000 lifetimes chance.

[SilenceForSilence]

Honestly It's not like that. You may find someone who you think is "the one" but you may or may not find the perfect person. In reality that probably won't happen. There are lots of people in the world and you may find someone else you may love. I say try to be friends with this guy as long as you can and maintain the friendship.

[Oby.]

Another thing is my life was going to shit before he came along, every other day at school I'd become dangerously close to being expelled, and since I've met him I haven't even had detention. If he leaves now, then certainly I'll go well below the baseline that I was before I met him. He gave me a reason to live, to try, and to get up in the morning. When he moves I can guarantee I will be far worse than before I met him within a couple days.

HI, up until now I was a visitor to the site, but reading this made me want to comment.

You're doing two silly things you should never do in life.

1) Never give up. In this case, you're giving up on love.

2) Never ever, ever, ever, ever, set yourself up for failure like you are in that post of yours.

[Grant]

^ No one except he has given me a reason to live, let alone try at life. I just don't see anyone changing that anytime soon, I only did good because I wanted to stay in school with him, to be with him, to talk to him. I don't know what to do because, I'll be honest, you're telling me to not give up, and I don't see a reason not to. If I get held back who gives a shit? If I have all D-s(just above failing), who cares anymore, not me that's for sure. I wouldn't be pushed away from him if I had to repeat a grade or if I had to take summer school or something, so I don't see a point.

I know there is a point, I just need someone to show me what it is. And that "if you get all D-s you can't get in a good college" crap doesn't work on me.

[Oby.]

^ No one except he has given me a reason to live, let alone try at life. I just don't see anyone changing that anytime soon, I only did good because I wanted to stay in school with him, to be with him, to talk to him. I don't know what to do because, I'll be honest, you're telling me to not give up, and I don't see a reason not to. If I get held back who gives a shit? If I have all D-s(just above failing), who cares anymore, not me that's for sure. I wouldn't be pushed away from him if I had to repeat a grade or if I had to take summer school or something, so I don't see a point.

I know there is a point, I just need someone to show me what it is. And that "if you get all D-s you can't get in a good college" crap doesn't work on me.

You see, the problem here is your focusing your entire life, your future, your everything on this one guy. I mean honestly, if he loved you as much as you love him, then wouldn't that mean he would've gone to such great lengths just to be with you? Maybe you two aren't meant to be, as corny as it sounds. I can't say this from experience, but I do know its true. You'll find love (that applies to both people in it) another day in your life. It may not be today, or tomorrow, or a damn year from now, but it will happen. And only time can be the answer to that question.