Im, Screwed.

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Fuck fuck fuck! Imma snap if I have to flash another fake smile. My SH has gotten to the point I have no room to cut/burn on my left arm. My legs are getting there too. I cant stop myself. I cant talk to my friend, it just triggers him. And telling my family wont do anything but get me bitched at and placed in a hosptial. So im stuck at this dark depressing silver stand still of desperation. The cuts keep getting deeper, the burns keep getting bigger. Suicidal thoughts rape my mind. I thrash around in the middle of the night, surpressing screams of misery. I cant eat, I cant sleep. What the fuck can I do???

[bvboy]

first of all, try to stay calm and breath. Even though it feels like the biggest problem, tell yourself its not. I'd say try to distract yourself, listen to music, do your schoolwork, especially the subjects you enjoy, do sports, watch movies(my personal favorite). Also, this will only keep things at bay for a limited amount of time, so I would consider telling at least one member of your family. If it really is as bad as it sounds, then getting psychiatric help wouldn't be such a bad idea. good luck with whatever you choose to do, but do us all a favor and try to keep the suicidal thoughts out of your mind. You can do it! This too shall pass.

[spfreak]

It sucks that you can't really talk to anyone, but you can always get help from people here and you can vent all you want. Try to distract yourself from cutting, and remember that you do not need it. I hope you feel better and if you ever need some advice, you can PM me

[1_21Guns]

Stop. Calm down. Breathe.
It's clear everything is killing you down bit by bit, you feel lost and like you have noone to turn to because the only person you had, can't handle it either.
There's many people on here who would be willing to hear you out, just reach out to someone and write out anything you can about how you feel, what's made you feel that way and so on, or you could just write it all out personally, just to get it all out, then rip it up, or burn that instead of your skin.
You need to realise that the self harm isn't helping you at all, or you may have done that already and that's a big step to get over. Overcoming self harm is always a challange, but it can be done no matter how weak a person feels, because you are strong.
You're not screwed, you've just hit a low point which feels like you've fallen into a black hole you stand no chance in hell of escaping, but there always is a way out.
All you can do is fight those thoughts, and don't let them get the better of you, because they don't have to, you can get past them you just need to hang in there, even when you feel like its become that hopeless it's aimless trying anymore, there's always hope, and theres always point in stopping.
Good luck hun :hug3:

[enjoying_my_insanity]

were all here for you so if you need someone to talk to talk to us and im really sorry that things are so tough for you if you ever need someone to vent to or just talk to for a good laugh im here! and as for the suicidal thoughts just remember all of us here want you alive and so do your family and your friends! and theyd be so upset if you werent here. and maybe some professional help would do you good? you sound like youre in a bad place and cant get out on your own so maybe a professional can help you with that they can be helpful and mostly know what they are talking about best of luck hun :hug: