Dissociative & Paranoia

[Alexithymia]

So, I haven't cut for 8 days, onto 9. Around day 4, I started getting these attacks. Some of them are dissociative, and others are paranoia. When I get into a dissociative mood, I get up into a ball and just sit there. Time means nothing to me. I can't think. If I do think it's in short bursts. I try and just hold myself together and not cut. When it's paranoia moods I think the whole world is trying to trick me. The whole world is trying to make me feel like and idiot.

How crazy am I?

[The Joker]

Hey, I have dissociative episodes as well. You are not alone.

[Fiction]

Me too, although I can never quite figure out if these are due to my low blood pressure making me so dizzy i dissacociate or if it's something pyschological, but it sounds exactly like what you are describing.