Am I crazy?

[ShinigamiMaiden]

Lately i've been cutting again.
After about 4 weeks of not cutting.

My reason for it is that i'm going through hard times because of things i've done, and i've made mistakes that were stupid and i can't rid them from my mind. i feel like if i cut then karma won't get me :( that my life won't be so bad...that...everything will be okay if i punish myself.

:/ i don't know what to do...

[LittleEpidemic]

A) maybe you are crazy, but as alice's dad says, all the best people are :)

B) a lot of people have that viewpoint, that they need punished for what theyve done and who would fairer judgement than themselves? Unfortunatly cutting being a personal and secret thing that doesnt change anything other than how you feel, when you cut you feel better in the short term because it releases adrenaline and endorphines, things that your body makes so that if u were hurt you wud feel the least sadness and pain possible and then you associate it with problem solving...
Long story short it basically helps in the short term but in the long term youre just wasting blood on problems and people that dont deserve it

[Njathind]

OK, first things first have a :hug:

Well done you made 4 weeks, ok so you sliped up, so what. Now your gonna pick yourself up and make it 5 weeks. I understand completly how you feel even if others don't. I sometimes punish myself through cutting, it's a wierd punishment seeing as it feels so good, but hey.

You gotta rememer to look back on your past and think, "OK so I did this, that and the other, I screwed this and that up, if I'd have done this then it would have been alright, now when this happens again i'll do this."

So what have you gotta do? Pick yourself up OK

[Fiction]

You know that cutting isn't going to help really. I know sometimes it is hard to let what you know take over from what you think and feel, but trying is the only way to get over this. You have to realise that regardless of what you feel, you know it isn't going to help.
You made 4 weeks, that's amazing, you need to try again because you can do it. You just need to realise that cutting isn't helpful.
Try getting rid of your blades, it always helps :)

[Mike321]

Well done for going 4 weeks, thats really good
We have all made mistakes and done stupid things, but you sholudnt let them play on your mind, I know its really hard not to cut, is not going to do you any good, even if it seems like it at the time.
I understand how you feel about cutting to punish yourself, I do this all the time, every little mistake I make I feel I need to cut myself because of it.
Like the other have said though, you need to pick yourself back up and try again, you've already proved to yourself you can make it 4 weeks, you can do it again and more
Hope this helps