i need to rant

[Costanza]

ive been cutting, other self harming things. i need to rant i dont kow if it will help with the urge to cut but i cant hurt to try

[Alexithymia]

So rant! That's what I normally do to help myself feel better. Sometimes it helps and sometimes it doesn't, but it can't hurt to try!

[Costanza]

So rant! That's what I normally do to help myself feel better. Sometimes it helps and sometimes it doesn't, but it can't hurt to try!

just seeing if there was some one to listne to me. well first off one of the biggest reasons im cutting and stuff is my two best friedns that are dead. and the inconsiderate people that are still joke about them!

[Costanza]

my parents, my siblings, and i are atheist im so tired of other people in my family trying to get us to go to church or say grace with them. I cant take all of the constant fighting!

[notactive]

I'm sorry to hear about your friends, losing people close to you is really hard to cope with and it's sick when people joke about it, there was a boy at our school who died and people just seemed to see it as some big joke, it really got to me. As for the religion thing I was forced to go to church until I was 12 and I hated it, don't let anyone try to force religion down your throat, just ignore it the best you can. I know that's hard.

It's really good to rant sometimes and hopefully this helps with the urge to cut.

=)

[Costanza]

i hate every fighting over what they inherit from my great grandfather. do they not even care that he died or just care that he was rich?!

[Njathind]

i hate every fighting over what they inherit from my great grandfather. do they not even care that he died or just care that he was rich?!

I'm afraid thats all most people care about these days buddy, it's money money money. It's a shame they dont seem to care about his death just his money. Try and either recognise it and not let it get to you or make your feelings known to those who are hurting you. You can get through this and I'm here to help you every step of the way.

[Costanza]

ughh i can take this! im too emotionally overwhelmed and stressed out.

[LittleEpidemic]

I agree with nat here, there are some very heartless people out there but they dont deserve your tears or blood
So pm me if ever you need it im here :) <3

[Njathind]

I agree with nat here, there are some very heartless people out there but they dont deserve your tears or blood
So pm me if ever you need it im here :) <3

ughh i can take this! im too emotionally overwhelmed and stressed out.

Andrew, listen to what Emma has said, it's hard I know but you dont deserve this. Got anything you can punch the crap out of? Or maybe just lay in bed and hug a pillow or a favourite stuffed toy, if you have one that is/

Please please please dont do this to yourself, a bit hypocritcal of me I know but please dont do it. :whoops:

[Costanza]

Andrew, listen to what Emma has said, it's hard I know but you dont deserve this. Got anything you can punch the crap out of? Or maybe just lay in bed and hug a pillow or a favourite stuffed toy, if you have one that is/

Please please please dont do this to yourself, a bit hypocritcal of me I know but please dont do it. :whoops:

im really trying to resist the urge but its day 3 and im about to crack

[LittleEpidemic]

Thats really good!
Im on about hour 2 so you can atleast smile and know youre doing better than someone ;)
Try your hardest <3

[Costanza]

on of my "friends" just told me the person i like was going out with someone just to mess with. turns out there not. gahh!!

people say i should enjoy the compliments but i hate people complimenting on my eyes. i would rather people look deeper in me than just the eyes.

it really helps with my grades but having a photographic memory makes me remember terrible things so much more clearly.

im so tempted to cut. im about to crack

[LittleEpidemic]

Awwhh dont crack >< the first day of my relapse was cus of a guy and now im sitting here wanting to watch blood pour from me
Its not worth it
Youve made it to day 3
Try and make it to christmas?
Then new year
You can do it i believe in you
And i cant see your eyes but i know that youre a beautiful person inside
As for your memory
Everybody remembers terrible things
The moment my dad said he hated me is etched on my brain
And i can remember evey horrible thing other people have said to me
Theyre not worth you breaking your skin
Be strong <3

[Costanza]

I'm really trying my best not too. I'm sorry if I end up cracking I'm doing my best

[LittleEpidemic]

Its okay, dont apologize for it, unfortunatly its a part of you it cant be helped <3

[Costanza]

Andrew, listen to what Emma has said, it's hard I know but you dont deserve this. Got anything you can punch the crap out of? Or maybe just lay in bed and hug a pillow or a favourite stuffed toy, if you have one that is/

Please please please dont do this to yourself, a bit hypocritcal of me I know but please dont do it. :whoops:

yeah to both but im not srue if that will be as much of a satisfying feeling

it seems like the only thing that can take my mind off the emotional pain is cutting or other self harming, but i guess trying something else wouldnt hurt

[Njathind]

Please please please try something else. Just give it a try, then at least you can say you have tried, and as you said it wont hurt you.

Please, for me and Emma

(oh and you have a new comment on your profile)

[Costanza]

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