After overeating I carved a few things into my arm?

[BreatheHopeIntoMe]

I don't know if this is the right forum. I was originally going to place it in cutting and self-harm but I thought it might be moved back to the ED forum because it's half cutting half food problems. :confused:

Well... I've been over-eating lately. I've gone from 114-117 or maybe 116 now. I'm not sure.
I finally felt so bad about it that I grabbed my razor and carved (Fat) and (Fatass) into my arm three times along with a few stray cuts. It felt good for a moment, but I knew that the calories were still seeping into my organs like a disease.

Last night my mom made me eat some crackers and cream cheese, I had already reached my calorie limit of 800 for the day so last night I made a bunch of clustered cuts only one saying 'fat'.

I used to cut my arms a lot when I was in 7th-11th grade (12th grade now), but I thought I had stopped...
I don't know how to get my emotions under control anymore, because I can't talk to anybody about anything, I have nightmares that I'm back in the Psych ward!
:(

[georgiamay]

:arrow: cutting and self harm.

I think it belongs here, because even though it is eating disorder related, the title suggests that this thread is mainly about self harm. Also, eating disorders are also a sort of form of self harm, it might not be done for the same reasons, but it's still harming yourself.

[Fiction]

I am exactly the same, when i feel i've eaten too much I am much more likley to cut. Since you said you used to cut alot before i'm sure you know that it's something that's hard to get out of. If you've been in a pysch ward i assume your parents know you've had problems and maybe you could talk to them about getting some help for your eating disorder?

[BreatheHopeIntoMe]

I would except I'm afraid to get help because I know I'll get fat! That always seems to happen, whenever somebody seeks help for eating issues they plump them up!

[Fiction]

Yes, because they are recovering. If you manage to get rid of the thoughts of guilt and negative feelings surronding food, then what will it matter to you that you've put on weight? It won't.

[BreatheHopeIntoMe]

I don't know... I'll try. But I'm not underweight so I don't know if they'd even take me seriously.