ktmay96
December 13th, 2010, 11:02 PM
So I have a boyfriend, J We'll have been together for a month on friday (technically. we were a thing for 2 weeks before that, but not official). I really like him, at least now. Long story short...
He had a thing with my friend and thats how I met him. Their thing fell apart because she didn't "want a relationship" (really she just didn't like him anymore). I had talked to him in person before and over facebook. One day, he had to get off facebook and asked me to text him. We ended up texting for 4 1/2 hours, with actual conversation. I talked to him constantly for a couple days, not knowing if I liked him. I could tell he liked me, then my friend told me he did. I posted on here about him before, and this is where I left off. So we continued talking, and I eventually came to the conclusion that I liked him. I told him, and then he asked me out a week later, it was real cute. It was after his hockey game, where we were off alone and he says he got MVP and gave me this puck that said MVP to J. I was like thats really amazing, and flipped it over and it said "Be my MVP?" :D Haha so yeah. And so we were going out, and he was my first kiss and all that jazz.
So here's where the complicated part starts.
About two weeks after we started going out, I wasn't really sure that I liked him anymore. I was seriously considering breaking up with him, cuz I just didn't feel like it was right and I of course didn't want to lead him on. There were two reasons for this.
1- I felt like he wasn't what I was looking for. I didn't get that feeling when I really like someone. There were no butterflies, no excitement, no wanting to be around him. I didn't enjoy being around him like I have with other people I've liked. My friend thought that maybe it was just because I didn't see him enough. (I'm thinking she was right)
2- My best guy friend. I have no idea if he likes me or not, but he sure isn't happy about the fact that I have a boyfriend. We were at our highschool's football game, and J had his arms around me. My guy friend comes over to say hi and see's this and gives me this look that totally says, "What. The. Hell?!" Then later I see him and I go up and say hi and he just says "Don't talk to me" and I'm like "What?" and he says "We're supposed to get married." (There's a joke between us that we're gonna be married one day because we've known eachother for so long.) And stuff like this. My friend thinks that he's into me, and me having a boyfriend made him realize he likes me. Now, I love him, he's my best friend. And I don't think I can ever love anyone like I do him. But I don't know if i "like" him. But the fact I didn't feel the love I have for my friend for J made me think I don't really like J.
But those complications went away... somewhat. I really really like him now, a lot. But my guy friend is still a problem. I don't know if I'm just confusing my love for him with me "liking" him and then comparing it to my attraction to J or if I just like my guy friend better. Or maybe I just don't feel the same because I've known my friend forever, and its just a different kind of love. I'm really confused. I don't want to break up with my boyfriend, but I don't know what to think. Any help what so ever is appreciated. And sorry if this doesn't make sense, go right ahead and ask for clarification.
He had a thing with my friend and thats how I met him. Their thing fell apart because she didn't "want a relationship" (really she just didn't like him anymore). I had talked to him in person before and over facebook. One day, he had to get off facebook and asked me to text him. We ended up texting for 4 1/2 hours, with actual conversation. I talked to him constantly for a couple days, not knowing if I liked him. I could tell he liked me, then my friend told me he did. I posted on here about him before, and this is where I left off. So we continued talking, and I eventually came to the conclusion that I liked him. I told him, and then he asked me out a week later, it was real cute. It was after his hockey game, where we were off alone and he says he got MVP and gave me this puck that said MVP to J. I was like thats really amazing, and flipped it over and it said "Be my MVP?" :D Haha so yeah. And so we were going out, and he was my first kiss and all that jazz.
So here's where the complicated part starts.
About two weeks after we started going out, I wasn't really sure that I liked him anymore. I was seriously considering breaking up with him, cuz I just didn't feel like it was right and I of course didn't want to lead him on. There were two reasons for this.
1- I felt like he wasn't what I was looking for. I didn't get that feeling when I really like someone. There were no butterflies, no excitement, no wanting to be around him. I didn't enjoy being around him like I have with other people I've liked. My friend thought that maybe it was just because I didn't see him enough. (I'm thinking she was right)
2- My best guy friend. I have no idea if he likes me or not, but he sure isn't happy about the fact that I have a boyfriend. We were at our highschool's football game, and J had his arms around me. My guy friend comes over to say hi and see's this and gives me this look that totally says, "What. The. Hell?!" Then later I see him and I go up and say hi and he just says "Don't talk to me" and I'm like "What?" and he says "We're supposed to get married." (There's a joke between us that we're gonna be married one day because we've known eachother for so long.) And stuff like this. My friend thinks that he's into me, and me having a boyfriend made him realize he likes me. Now, I love him, he's my best friend. And I don't think I can ever love anyone like I do him. But I don't know if i "like" him. But the fact I didn't feel the love I have for my friend for J made me think I don't really like J.
But those complications went away... somewhat. I really really like him now, a lot. But my guy friend is still a problem. I don't know if I'm just confusing my love for him with me "liking" him and then comparing it to my attraction to J or if I just like my guy friend better. Or maybe I just don't feel the same because I've known my friend forever, and its just a different kind of love. I'm really confused. I don't want to break up with my boyfriend, but I don't know what to think. Any help what so ever is appreciated. And sorry if this doesn't make sense, go right ahead and ask for clarification.