Syvelocin
December 13th, 2010, 01:37 PM
When I found out Ana got out, I didn't react as much at first. Now, I feel like I'm increasingly getting bothered by her absence. That cat hated me, but I think I may cry over her eventually.
I'm always hearing her meow, always hoping when I drive by the creek around our house that I'll just see her there. Everytime the phone rings, I'm hoping it's someone who has found her and responding to the sign we put out.
It's not as bad as it would be if I lost my own baby, the cat I treat as if he's my own son. Mizzy is everything to me. My mum got him for me at a time in my life where I was really struggling with depression and such, and he's been great for me emotionally. I would be out there 24/7 looking for him if it was him who got out, never giving up. But all day I've been thinking about her. Maybe also because her absence has taken a toll on my own cat. They've become very close playmates, and now Miz seems so... melancholy.
I've gone through deaths of pets before. But losing Ana like that... I think it's harder, because you don't know if she'll turn up on the doorstep one day, or if she'll be run over by a car or if she's already been run over. You don't know if someone found her and decided to keep her instead of trying to find the owner. You just don't know.
I'm always hearing her meow, always hoping when I drive by the creek around our house that I'll just see her there. Everytime the phone rings, I'm hoping it's someone who has found her and responding to the sign we put out.
It's not as bad as it would be if I lost my own baby, the cat I treat as if he's my own son. Mizzy is everything to me. My mum got him for me at a time in my life where I was really struggling with depression and such, and he's been great for me emotionally. I would be out there 24/7 looking for him if it was him who got out, never giving up. But all day I've been thinking about her. Maybe also because her absence has taken a toll on my own cat. They've become very close playmates, and now Miz seems so... melancholy.
I've gone through deaths of pets before. But losing Ana like that... I think it's harder, because you don't know if she'll turn up on the doorstep one day, or if she'll be run over by a car or if she's already been run over. You don't know if someone found her and decided to keep her instead of trying to find the owner. You just don't know.