She can't look.

[MadManWithaBox]

She can't look at herself in the mirror.
She hates what she see's.
She wants to cut away the imperfections.
She wants to cut away the fat.
She wants to cut away her whole being.

She wants to cut out her heart,
and live without the pain.

She worries people will see.
The scars.
She thinks people will see the pain.
And nothing frightens her more.

Her whole being
She wants it to be over
She wants it to be better
She wants to be a small child again
She wants someone to pick her up
in their arms and carry her home.

But no-one comes.
The dissatisfaction sickens her.
The hatred she feels when she looks in the mirror.
The ugly wounds, disgusting reminders
of her own weakness
The exams she has to revise for
The boyfriend she has to please
Her mum shouting at her
Her sister crying in the background
It is all too much.

Too much for me.

[georgiamay]

I love this. It's obvious that you've put you're heart into this, it really makes you... Idk, it makes you think, and feel... idk :O but that's a good sign :P it's very good.

[Fiction]

I LOVE this so much. It describes how it feels perfectly :)

[MadManWithaBox]

Thankis Kathy

[Sith Lord 13]

Great writing Matt, I loved it, as usual, even if it is quite depressing.

[MadManWithaBox]

Thanks Alex. I'm not sure if I'm better at optimistic stuff, or sad stuff. But I find sadder stuff easier to write, as its easier to do... what's the word, imagery for it.

[Charleigh]

thats really good (:
made me well up with tears, its really moving. when you think about it so deeply and sort of ... in a sincere way, its very touching.

also i could relate to that, nearly word for word (:

that was awesome (: