missing my mum....

[anamcara]

im listning to snow patrol's open your eyes, and all i can think of is how, when i went to see my mother at the chapel of rest and how i just wanted her to open her eyes, and come back to me, tell me it was all a horrible nightmare, she never did, and thats beyond stupid i know cause i knew she was dead. i'd do anything just to see her again, to talk to her again. i miss her soo much, why couldnt god have taken me instead??, she used to say everyone is born with a clock, and when he wants you back your time is up. but why couldnt my time have been up then? i hate life so much xx

[tashbash3]

aww, hun, i know what it's like to lose a mother, my mum commited suicide when i was 13 and i'm still not over it.
and i remember seeing her in her coffin and she looked so peaceful, yet it didn't look like her. i wanted her to wake up and just say it was a joke, but it doesn't work like that :(
if you need anyone to talk to, i'm here for you, you don't have to suffer it alone <3

[anamcara]

thank you, im sorry to hear about your mother, i suppose things will get easier as time goes on, at least i hope they will, im starting to forget what talking to her was like, im scared i might forget the little things, you know like what her hugs felt like and even when she was mad at me, which suprisingly wasn't that often lol, but anyway i guess she is in a better place now and she'd probably kick my backside for grieving cause she always wanted people to be happy, even after she was gone xx

[tashbash3]

just keep your head up, love, it's hard to do, but you have friends and family around you who will support you and you know, if you need to talk to anyone about anything, cause bereavement is a huge thing to deal with, there are people who you can contact and they'll be more than happy to help you :)