the forced smiles are beginning to fade....

[anamcara]

when i was younger i used to be able to hide the fact that there was anything wrong very well, but as i've got older i can feel all the forced smiles fading, and its like i hid myself behind those smiles, if that makes any sense, now i have nothing to hide behind, im out of my comfort zone and it scares me, i feel like a child who is afraid that the monster under her bed is going to get her, you know the feeling?? what can i do???

[Fiction]

I know this feeling exactly. Maybe it'll be good to show someone how your really feeling? You might be able to get help and support that way.

[anamcara]

maybe xx

[Love.Hate]

I agree with kathy, hiding how your feeling all the time isnt good.
Try to open up a bit more, if people know how your feeling then they can only help :)