Not coping well with death

[Love.Hate]

So about an hour ago i found out that my dads girlfriends
dad, died late last night.

I have sat and cried for a while.
I feel like because i only ever met him a few times, i dont deserve the right to grieve over him. Really the ones who should be hurting right now are his daughters and grandchildren and his lovely wife. :(

He was so nice, and cheerful and even though he knew he was going to die of cancer he still remained positive and kept fighting...
Even having very expensive drugs not paid for by the NHS didnt help.
Money cant buy happiness.

I just need to stop crying. I dont know how i will cope tommorow when dads girlfriend comes round.. Im so upset :(

I just want this pain to stop.. Why do i feel like this?
Im having thoughts of SH, that will stop the pain.. even if only for a few seconds..
All today i have felt really bad, and quite dizzy and fazed out. I kind of knew something was up.. i dont know its strange.

Anyway sorry if i posted it in the wrong section. I just needed to let it out..

Rest in peace xxx

[Fiction]

When my grandad died i felt like this. Is it possible you are partly upset because the people you do know and care about are going to be upset?

[Love.Hate]

Is it possible you are partly upset because the people you do know and care about are going to be upset?

Yes, i do feel a bit like that.

I just hope there going to be ok :(

[DarkHorses]

I think I can understand why you might be feeling so upset. Like Fiction mentioned, maybe it's that you're feeling empathetic for the people in his family who lost him. It could also be that you're having a hard time accepting the fact that everyone dies, that people have to move on and can't stay with us forever. That's never an easy realization, and it's hard each and every time we have to come to terms with it again, even if it's because of someone we weren't really even close to.

But in my opinion, it's somewhat a good thing that you're feeling this way. It's good to be empathetic. This way you know how his family members are feeling, and you can give them your condolences and assure them that you understand, and you really do understand. It means a lot to people that you can be empathetic and really understand their suffering. You may be a blessing for the family and be able to help them through their loss simply because you understand so much.

[Love.Hate]

Yeah i suppose.

Thankyou Amanda xx

[Mike321]

Like the other have said, you might be feeling this way becuase your being empathetic for the other people in the family, its never an easy thing to loose someone, even if you havent known them that long, when I lost mt aunt to cancer, I felt pretty much the same way.
You do have the right to grieve over him, even if you only met him a few times, you knew what a nice person he was.
His family will be okay, they will just need to time to come to terms with it, as you will too.
Just be there to offer your support his family, which I'm sure they will be greatful for.
Hope this helps