I haven't started yet, but...

[Red Canary]

Agh. I just don't know. I could so easily. And it sounds sweeter than honey to me.

You see, my girlfriend used to cut. A long time ago. She stopped about eight months ago, but did it again recently. The reason is because... well, story time.

In my school district, there is a place called Central Academy. With A's and B's in seventh grade and high state test scores, you're invited to come for part of the day there and part at your home school the next year. I knew her in eighth grade from that school, but she was quiet, so I didn't know much about her. This year, I started talking to her on Facebook. Eventually, we started dating, and I found out she had the hugest crush on me last year. All last year. She didn't say anything because she thought I would be creeped out or something.

Thing is, I had no one at all last year. If she would've just said something, last year would have been so much better. The boyfriend she had last year used her, and when they broke up, he lured her into a trap where one of his friends raped her. As terrible as that is, it is besides the point.

So, we were talking about how we both regretted not talking to each other in eighth grade, and it stuck in her mind. I left for home, and last night she cut herself because she was so sad.

This kills me. It makes me want to cut, even though I've never done it before. I don't know if I can hold myself off much longer, just talking about it makes me want to stand up and get a razor. I need someone to help talk me down.

[Purpose]

Well, cutting yourself is just going to make the entire situation that much worse. What happens when your girlfriend discovers you cut yourself? She's going to eventually realize it was because SHE cut herself and then she's going to feel much worse that she made the boy she's had a gigantic crush on and then finally managed to date hurt himself. And then she'll probably cut herself even more.

Are you prepared to let something like that happen? All because you "feel bad"? I don't think you are. Instead of cutting yourself, I think you should instead talk to her and try to help her out. Get her to stop, let her know you're there for her.

Don't cut yourself.

[LittleEpidemic]

Hi :)
Id first like to say that today was my first cutting day in 3 years and i regret it alot
You wouldnt think it but when u make that first cut, when you like the feeling of the little sting, thats you hooked thats your ways of solving problems for life now i know that if i cud go back to the first time i slit i wouldnt have, its the biggest regret of my life "/

[Red Canary]

Well, cutting yourself is just going to make the entire situation that much worse. What happens when your girlfriend discovers you cut yourself? She's going to eventually realize it was because SHE cut herself and then she's going to feel much worse that she made the boy she's had a gigantic crush on and then finally managed to date hurt himself. And then she'll probably cut herself even more.

Are you prepared to let something like that happen? All because you "feel bad"? I don't think you are. Instead of cutting yourself, I think you should instead talk to her and try to help her out. Get her to stop, let her know you're there for her.

Don't cut yourself.

I understand that. I don't just feel bad, there's plenty of other reasons I'm depressed. Parents, school, life in general. My girlfriend is the only good thing in my life right now besides my art and since she's hurting, it's doing a world of pain to me.

I don't want to cut. It just sounds wonderful. It's almost like an instinctual thing, in my mind I understand it would be stupid, but there's a small part of me that is urging me to.

[Purpose]

I understand that. I don't just feel bad, there's plenty of other reasons I'm depressed. Parents, school, life in general. My girlfriend is the only good thing in my life right now besides my art and since she's hurting, it's doing a world of pain to me.

I don't want to cut. It just sounds wonderful. It's almost like an instinctual thing, in my mind I understand it would be stupid, but there's a small part of me that is urging me to.

Well, cutting is just not going to help at all. Don't focus on yourself. Don't focus on how badly you want to cut. Focus on your girlfriend. Focus on helping her. If the part of you that wants to cut is so small, then ignore it, focus on other things. Such as, your girlfriend, and how she probably needs you right now.

[Red Canary]

I can try very hard. Thank you, you're helping a lot. I almost did it, but I checked here first, I don't know why, but I did, and I saw your post. Thanks so much, you've saved me for now.

[Mike321]

I think what 'Purpose' has said is really good, cutting isn't a road you want to go down, once you start is really hard to stop.

I'm sorry to hear about what happened to your girlfriend

My girlfriend is the only good thing in my life right now besides my art

But as you said yourself she is the one of the only good things you have in your life right now, so I'd focus your attention on her, as she is the most improtant thing to you.
Let her know that you want to help her and be there for her, if you help her through this you'll feel much better about yourself, so really I think you need to help her to help yourself, if that makes sense.
Feel free to message me if you want to talk