Uh hey.. yeah...

[LittleEpidemic]

right life story time ''/
so it all started when i was 10 and a whole lotta crap was happenin... i used to hide under my bed when i was pissed off (my beds not like other beds, its gotta desk underneath so theres this little "secret room" under it :whoops:)
and one time there was this sharpener that had fallen down there and for some reason i started unscrewing it... i dont know why i just did
i accidently cut my self when i was doing this
and thats when it started
i cut for about a year and then i made a pact with a good friend of mine that i wouldn't do it again.
3 years later
ive started again, just today
i was crying for hours and then i got this cold, shakey thing... its what happened when i needed to cut when i was younger
today ive made 16 slits
and wrote the word 'love' on my thigh...


sorry for the length i just thought i should share my story...

[Njathind]

Awwww, Emma :hug:

I'm so sorry, I gotta say well done for making it 3 years though, today was only a slip up, remeber that. You've just gotta try and think positive, maybe try an alternative coping mechanism such as the rubber band thing?
I hope you dont mind me asking but what got you so down?

PM me if you dont wanna talk in the open.

[Fiction]

You did 3 years. That's amazing. Well Done. You can do it again though. You can get through this. It's just a small skip up, it happens to lots of us. You just need to keep going. Good luck.

[Mike321]

Sorry to hear what happened
3 years is really really good, you should be proud of yourself for that.
Please dont get back into it again though, we have all had slip ups at some point, maybe try some of the alternatives to cutting (rubber band, ice cube etc) and see if that helps.
You can make it to another 3 years and more, keep going
Feel free to message me if you want to talk

[LittleEpidemic]

well its really stupid but:
theres this girl lets call her.... rachel
and rachel pretended to be my friend for ages when she actually hated me
rachel then proceeded to try and steal my best friend um.. anna? :L
and then rachel was sooo horrible to anna and my other friend ... adam? xD (apologies of my suckish fake naming)
and drove anna to slitting (alot of my friends do this but this was anna's first time)

anyway, u can probably now understand how i feel about rachel
then theres this guy... tyler?
and i kinda maybe reeeally liked him (you see where this is going dont you)
rachel is very pretty, funny PERFECT in any guys eyes
tyler said he liked me, he actually told me he loved me atleast 3 times
tyler asked me last night if it wud be okay if he cud ask rachel out and that he wont if its not okay by me
i said he should if he likes her...


i cried. and i cried. and then it happened, i got all cold and shakey, the way i got when i had to slit... i went all crazy ass tryna find a sharpener blade and ive been at it all day today ''/
stupid isnt it?? xD :whoops: (sorry for the length)

[Njathind]

Dont worry, it's not stupid at all, this rachel girl sounds like a nasty peice of work and if anything I think is a little messed up, but thats beside the point.
Unfortunatly there will always be people like rachel in the world and the best thing to do is just try and cut people like that out.

As for when you get cold and shaky, try and somehow supress the urge, take a walk, write on here or in a diary, draw, try cluthching an icecube or slapping a band against yourself, anything just not cutting, as has already been said you made it 3 years now it's time to make it 4.

As everyone has said if you ever wanna talk just PM any of us.

[LittleEpidemic]

Yeah well that 3years is gone now
Currently im at 2hours o.o
Mum made me sew something half an hour ago and its like the needle was screaming for it.
Sigh
I told a friend and shes crying. Its only now that i realise anna slitting was enough for her to deal with
Sidenote: Anyone thinking of carving when their pain thershold sucks? Dont -.-

[Njathind]

Three years may be gone but it's something to look back on and be proud of, you made it that far and you can make it further when you feel ready. It seem you and anna are going through a tough time at the moment, but it sounds like your there for each other, are your wounds ok? If you carved you may need medical attention. :(

[LittleEpidemic]

They arnt very deep, it wasnt really carving as such just slits that i put beside eacother, the way you write on trees (weird connection there)
Thanks for your concern tho :)

[Njathind]

No worries, just remeber if you ever need someone to talk to, my ears are always open :)