Ugh why

[hotandgay]

i thought i was better i thought it was gone why is it happing again. i dont know what to do...its twice as bad. let me eleberate a lil bit. i was very sucidal and destructive and heavy on the drinkin. i went to foster care and got a lil bit of help then i moved away and started fresh and good now im starting to think about cutting and i have the urge to do so. my little tips i give dont work anynmore i really sdont know what to do and im going crazy. I paste a smile on my face hopeing knowonw will notice what i feel because they think aim smary andgood and can help...when they ask me if im good or how im doing i say im good....why do i fucking lie whay is happening and why is it so bad WTF should i do...welll i know you cant really answer much but what ever you can do within the confinds of the rules please do so i cant take ist i just want to cry and give up when im needed the most for so much and i know thats not it im really hott my ears burn i cant slppeep like usual OMG please help and sorry for the speloing and shit im just idk thankz sor reading i guess

[Fiction]

No need to be sorry.
Why don't you try talking to someone about everything that is happening? You can always contact me but it would be very useful if you could tell someone in real life about your problems.
Cutting will only make the situation worse won't it? I'm sure you already know that but just think about it, what will it actually solve? Nothing.
You said that your "little tips" don't work anymore. i assume you mean tips to stop you cutting? Because anything is worth trying.
As I said, feel free to contact me if you ever want to talk about anything :)

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Im proud of u for stopping! And like Fiction said, Cutting will just make ur probs worse. Talking to someone u trust can help. Whenever u get an urge why not text or call them. Talking about things instead of keeping it all inside makes it that much easier to deal with things. Maybe something stressful set u off, or maybe its just a passing urge? Talking to someone who deals with people who selfharm might beable to give u a better understanding and answer ur questions on a deeper level.

[Mike321]

Like the previous 2 people have said, cutting is only going to add to your problems, not make them better,
Have you got anyone you can talk to about this, maybe a close friend or someone you can really trust, I think it can help if you have someone to talk to about your problems
Anything to prevent you cutting is worth giving a try, try some of the other coping methods out there, see if you can find one that works for you
Hope this helps

[Mikey_bishop]

Talk to someone dude. Everyone goes through rough spots, no matter how long things have been going good, everyone slips up.

As far as always putting in the smile and lying when people ask how you are doing...I'm right there with ya man. you are probably someone who people expect to have the answers and to help them out all the time, because you have been through it all already. That can be dangerous cause when you spend so much time being there for everyone, you can sometimes feel guilty when you are the one needing help. Its ok to need help. cant always do it on your own man.

You said you got help before. How old are you? If you got help before, then you have some idea of how to go about it again. Tell someone what is going on. Cutting will not make it better and if you do that, and people find out without you telling them, it could turn out bad for you.

Dont be embarrassed to say you need some help. Its hard work being there for everyone man! Find a friend or even a counselor who can be there for you this time around. We gotta take care of ourselves before we can help take care of other people :)