Is it really horrible that I cheated?

[BreatheHopeIntoMe]

I'm eighteen, my boyfriend (23) is in the Army as an NBC (Nuclear, Biochemical warfare).
He was recently read the second part of his Article 15 which is like a refferal you would get at school except worse. He got in trouble for possesion of serenity on base even though it's legal here.
So they put him on 45 day post restrictions which means he can't leave base and works extra hours nights and weekends.
His fort is to far away from me to go visit, and he would be busy anyway since he works till eleven on weeknights and all night on weekends.We've been dating for three months.

Another good friend of mine who happens to be one of my good friend's ex-boyfriends came down from Fort Mcconnely in Kansas for Thanksgiving.
Thanksgiving night we went to see a movie, it was freezing outside so after the movie once we made it back into his truck we were trying to warm up and we kissed.. a lot...

I feel really guilty about it, but I haven't had any physical contact in over a month! And I still have until January till I get to see my boyfriend. =\ It's hard. Is it so bad that I cheated? I won't do it again, I just liked the guy for so long.

[laurita_21]

I don't think you should have done it. But you can't do anything about it now.

[Number02]

It's understandable, but tbh I would expect you to wait for your bf... No matter how hard it is.

I would also personally recommend coming clean with your bf, accept the consequences, then learn from your mistakes.

You made the bed, now you've gotta lie in it. Mark it down as a learning experience.

Good luck :)

[Donkey]

What you did was definitely wrong, an abuse of trust and morally incorrect - let's not forget that. But we all make mistakes and if you're learning them, it's alright. Just make sure nothing more happens and that you properly commit to this relationship. Imagine if your boyfriend had done this to you? If you love them, you wouldn't do something like that to them.

Still though, don't dwell on the past - accept you've made a mistake and work to move on :)

[Jenna.]

I'm not trying to be mean...but what you did to him was wrong. Imagine if you were away and your boyfriend cheated on you. If the shoe was on the other foot, so to speak, wouldn't you be upset? Would you really do that to someone you truly love? :/
I'm friends with a girl whose boyfriend is away as well, she hasn't seen him since August and he's coming home for Christmas. She hasn't had any physical contact for over 3 months! But she wants to wait for her boyfriend to come home, because she really loves him and wants to marry him when this is all said & done.
Honestly the best thing you can do is, like other posters have said, learn from your mistakes and try to move on. I can see where you're coming from but at the same time...it's really hurtful for your boyfriend.

Edit: If you sit down and calmly try to explain everything (basically exactly what you posted down there) he'll probably be more inclined to forgive you. His trust in you might be broken for a while but you have chances to earn it back. He'll probably be angry, but that's to be expected. Just talk it out, and see what happens. Honestly, if you're as sorry as you seem like you are, I have a feeling he'll give you another chance.

[BreatheHopeIntoMe]

I know it was wrong and I feel really bad about it, but I'm not used to dating somebody I rarely get to see. I was fine when I only got to see him once a month, but right now, I never get to talk to him. I get probably one text out of him a day and I still have until January to see him. I'm trying very hard to be a good girlfriend, but so far I'm doing poorly.

I don't see myself ever cheating on him again. I think that guy was the ONLY one and he's back in Kansas now and probably won't be back until next year and by then, I'll be gone.
I hope that he can forgive me... I know it was wrong..