im such an idiot....

[Tristin.]

ok, so im not sure if this is the right place to post ths, but ill post it here anyway.

About 40 mins ago, i asked my brother how he feels about our parents and howw they treat us (if you dont know how they treat us, we are basicaly an accessory to them, we are sent to boarding school in a different country, when at home we eat with either the staff or in our own dining room, we have our own house in the grounds of the main house and are never allowed to it unless called for by our parents, they buy our affection and expect us to be perfect for them), i found out that he has been cutting for 6 months :O

i felt really shitty at the fact he never told me as we always tell each other everything.
Also earlier today, i realised the only way to get our parents attention while at school is to do something soo major the school would have to phone home and tell them.
After realising this, i though of skipping classes, swearing at teachers etc then it hit me, if i cut myself and the school noticed, they would phone home, and with fin also cutting , they would have 2x the reason to phone home!!

so i cut myself and now i feel so stupid over it cos fin might think its his fault... i dont know what to do... fuck :(

[Philleeep]

i suggest you make it look like an accident, if you feel he will understand then tell him straight why you did it. im not good at telling people straight but i know you are :)

[laurita_21]

Don't do it! Find another way to get their attention, but please don't hurt yourself :(

[Philleeep]

Don't do it! Find another way to get their attention, but please don't hurt yourself :(

he already has cut himself.
Tristin if you need to talk i am always here and i seriously hope you never feel the need too cut. tbh i bite myself and i wish i could stop. but i can help you if you ever need it. Im here for you Tristin.

[Njathind]

Damn, buddy, this sounds harsh. Maybe your bro didn't tell you because he didn't feel comfortable with just randomly blurting it out. However I dont think cutting to get their attention is the right answer, if you must cut then cut but dont do it for you mum and dad. Is there no one at school that you can speak to? maybe a teacher or counciler or someone, then maybe they can get in touch with your pearents. If you cant speak to anyone else, i'm always here if you wanna chat.

I hope your ok buddy :)

[laurita_21]

Yea I realized that thank you, Phill -_-"

I'm just saying please don't do it again, I don't know how exactly how you feel but I can understand you. You can always PM me if you want to talk or anything!
Or go hug Jono! :D We can have another one of our group hugs if you want? :3
I'm hugging you anyway :hug3:

[Fiction]

Maybe you should explain to him that you've been cutting too? Talk about it, and how long you've been doing it. He's opened up to you it's now your turn to open up to him. Good luck.

[Tristin.]

Maybe you should explain to him that you've been cutting too? Talk about it, and how long you've been doing it. He's opened up to you it's now your turn to open up to him. Good luck.

first time was today, and it was soo easy,....

[Fiction]

Ohh... your first time was today? I never realised that...
Well, please don't do it again. it's a horrible road to go down. :/

[IsabellaJane]

Tristin, i'm sorry to hear about your brother and how you feel you have to cut to get your parents attention :/
I don't think cutting is the right thing to do, i think you should try and help your brother with his cutting problem,
I'm always here if you wanna talk, you know where i am xxxxx

[Mike321]

I'm sorry to hear what your going through, but cutting isn't a good road to go down.
As it was only your first time, please stop now before it gets too addictive, try and help and support your brother.
And cutting isn't the right way to get your parents attention, your more than welcome to talk to any of us on here