Punk_Kid
November 28th, 2010, 08:36 AM
So I told my Mom about my depression of 3-4 years, my cutting, my suicide attempts and we finally had the sex talk lol
I told her that my depression stems from the sweaty hands and so does my cutting. I also told her that my suicide attempts are from the same problem.
At first we talked about the possibility of surgery and she was reluctant at first. But when I told her I wanted anti-depressant pills she knew it was bothering me a whole lot more.
She used to work as... I'm not sure what it is but she had to help mentally ill children in a home. So I asked her what kinds of kids she worked with. She listed some of them off for me. She said Abused kids, depressed kids, cutters, suicidal kids and a few others.
I asked her how she helped the cutters and she said that you have to talk with them and figure out the reason they cut themselves. Then I asked her how she helped the suicidal kids and she said that you have to find out why the are suicidal and then try to help them find something to hold onto.
I asked her if she ever cut or tried to kill herself, she said yes to both of them. Even I was a bit taken back when she told me. So I lifted up my sleeves and showed her my cuts. Then I told her about some of my suicide attempts.
Then she showed me some of the faint scars on her wrists and about the time she collected a large amount of pills and tried to OD.
After I knew she wasn't gonna completely freak out I went and unloaded the shotgun. I was feeling really shitty that day, in anticipation to talking to her, and was gonna kill myself if she rejected my approach to talk about everything.
So now she is going to call my GP on Monday to make an appointment for pills and to discuss the surgery. She never once called me a freak or anything like that. She said that she loved me and is always here for me.
And about the sex talk... What size/kind condoms should I ask her for? I'm 6 3/4" and idk what size to ask her for (and yes, she offered to get me some).
If you haven't told anyone about how you feel(i.e. depression, self harming, suicide, etc.), I recommend you do. I instantly felt loads better and not as alone. Even if the person isn't a parent, even if it is just your friend at school or your school's guidnce counselor, TELL SOMEBODY! It really does help. So thank you Mom, thank you VT and all Psych. Ward Mods and forum users, I love you all. If it wasn't for VT, I'd probably be dead by now :hug: If anyone needs to talk just PM me cuz I will listen:D
I told her that my depression stems from the sweaty hands and so does my cutting. I also told her that my suicide attempts are from the same problem.
At first we talked about the possibility of surgery and she was reluctant at first. But when I told her I wanted anti-depressant pills she knew it was bothering me a whole lot more.
She used to work as... I'm not sure what it is but she had to help mentally ill children in a home. So I asked her what kinds of kids she worked with. She listed some of them off for me. She said Abused kids, depressed kids, cutters, suicidal kids and a few others.
I asked her how she helped the cutters and she said that you have to talk with them and figure out the reason they cut themselves. Then I asked her how she helped the suicidal kids and she said that you have to find out why the are suicidal and then try to help them find something to hold onto.
I asked her if she ever cut or tried to kill herself, she said yes to both of them. Even I was a bit taken back when she told me. So I lifted up my sleeves and showed her my cuts. Then I told her about some of my suicide attempts.
Then she showed me some of the faint scars on her wrists and about the time she collected a large amount of pills and tried to OD.
After I knew she wasn't gonna completely freak out I went and unloaded the shotgun. I was feeling really shitty that day, in anticipation to talking to her, and was gonna kill myself if she rejected my approach to talk about everything.
So now she is going to call my GP on Monday to make an appointment for pills and to discuss the surgery. She never once called me a freak or anything like that. She said that she loved me and is always here for me.
And about the sex talk... What size/kind condoms should I ask her for? I'm 6 3/4" and idk what size to ask her for (and yes, she offered to get me some).
If you haven't told anyone about how you feel(i.e. depression, self harming, suicide, etc.), I recommend you do. I instantly felt loads better and not as alone. Even if the person isn't a parent, even if it is just your friend at school or your school's guidnce counselor, TELL SOMEBODY! It really does help. So thank you Mom, thank you VT and all Psych. Ward Mods and forum users, I love you all. If it wasn't for VT, I'd probably be dead by now :hug: If anyone needs to talk just PM me cuz I will listen:D