A suggestion... or ninety?

[Alexithymia]

Not sure if this is double posting, tell me if it is...

I've only cut once. I don't want to go down that road. I know it's addictive, and I know it holds onto your life. But I can't even take a warm shower to calm me down. I would cut myself with the razors. I can't get anything to eat, because I'll just cut myself with a kitchen knife. I can't go outside, unless I feel like freezing to death. (Near freezing here.) Games don't interest me, I'm depressed. I don't know what to do. I can't sleep (just took a nap). I don't have the heart for writing right now. What do I do?

It's too addictive. I'm not meaning to take up the posts on VT, but I don't know where else to go. I feel bad talking to my other online friends and I have no way to contact my best friend.

Gah!

[Fiction]

How long have you been cutting?
Try ANYTHING that isn't cutting. Maybe make yourself food while your parents are in the room, or take a shower and move away your razors first. maybe you could try talking to some friends or something, not about cutting but just to distract you.
Stopping cutting is hard, because as you've said it's addicting but at the end of the day you'll be happier if you do it sooner rather than later.
Feel free to contact me if you want to talk about your self harm or if you need a distraction :)

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Maybe blast music or watch tv? Instead of reaching for a razor or knife, why not squeeze an icecube?

[Alexithymia]

Yeah. I could try the icecube thing. It would probably help. Right now I have this urge to just cut and cut and cut. Today's really sucked. I'm worried about the next time I go to the doctor (he'll see the scars). I know the orthodontist is going to yell at me for not wearing my rubber bands. I'm worried about changing for gym. Some of those things might not make sense for me to want to cut, but cutting helps - temporarily. Thanks for the help.

[RockstarRocks]

i cant sleep ethir. i dont cut im just rlly depressed. and i feel like dieing im just afraid to. i go insane in my mind. i cant get the thoughts out. im tried of not sleeping woke up at 3:30am everyday today 2:30am cant sleep. i dont no what to do.

[Mike321]

I would recommend giving the ice cube thing a go, its worked for me quite a few times.
We all have bad days, but keep fighting the urge, and you said yourself that cutting only helps temporarily, but it can leave long term reminders.
Try not to worry about the orthodontist, he can only moan at you and tell you to wear them.
But definitelytry the ice cube technique
Hope this helps

[Alexithymia]

Thanks everyone. Today went a lot better than I originally thought, but someone those longer things are in my mind. I'm just trying to not think of it and even more so trying not to cut. (Also, lucky me I like searching through the forums because I found this (http://www.rcpsych.ac.uk/PDF/Self-Harm%20Distractions%20and%20Alternatives%20FINAL.pdf) link.)