So numb.

[Fiction]

I've kind of kept this totally to myself, but one of my best friends has just been given a year to live. He helped me so much more than anyone i've ever known. He understood everything. My self harm, my eating disorder. The fact is, i will probably never speak to him again now. Why is a long story but just chances are i won't. I'm so numb and i just want him to be ok. He's only 17, it's horrible. I've cut twice in the last day. I'm just so numb and i keep wanting to cut, but i've got a promise to keep and it's so hard. How do i begin to feel again? I really don't know how i'm going to cope, especially when I know he's gone.

[Mike321]

Kathy, I'm really sorry to hear about your friend, it must be an awful thing to go through.
I dont know what advice to give you, and I know its going to be hard not to cut, but he wouldn't want you to do that.
All I can do is offer you my support, I'm always here if you need to talk

[Fiction]

Thank you :)

[Syvelocin]

That must be hard. I can't begin to imagine what it's like to be close to someone who is terminally ill (if this is the case, it was my guess). If you don't mind me asking, what does he have?

Though I do know that he probably isn't as scared or depressed about it as his family and friends are. Depending on how long he's known, it might barely even phase him. It's definitely harder for the people who know him than it is for him, I know from experience. It's a constant thought when you look at them. You only have such and such amount of time left with them. But make it last. Use this time to make him feel special, to get closer to him even. Don't make it the last time you talk to him. It's just as hard for him to know that the people he cares about are/will be so upset like that, how much his passing will hurt them.

It will be hard, but cherish the moments. Of course, that's definitely what he would want. And make it a priority to not cut, just for him, however long you can go for him, whether you get through a tough night or a whole week, month even, for him. I would be honoured if I was him if it was even just a night you resist cutting for him.

[Love.Hate]

The day before christmas last year one of my friends died.
I was so close to her and she was only 15! but it was hard..

My advice to you is to is all ways possible take your mind off self
harm and focus trying to helping people that are going to be affected
by his loss.
*hug*
Remember all the times he has helped you and all the good memories.
Let him know you care, and try to talk to him, Talk with him about all
your happy memories... Because i can garentee you that if you dont
spend this time he has left with him you will regret it.
Try not to cut, Always here xxx

[Njathind]

Oh my gosh Kathy, I'm so sorry to hear this, it's kinda scary to think what can happen to anyone at any age. I can only second the advice already given, make the most of the time you have left, get to know him well but dont get too attached, please resist the urge to cut, try all maner of distraction techniques, we are all here for you.
:hug:

[Fiction]

Thanks all of you, but weather i will actually see him again is out of my control. Even weather i talk to him again is.

[Theatheist of doom]

Try to get yourself to feel by remembering all your favorite moments of your life and try to have many more. Make new friends, stuff like that. You have my support ;D

[Fiction]

Sorry Rith, I forgot to answer your question. He has emphseyma, but not from smoking.
And thanks all of you.

[Njathind]

In that case dont foreget about him, treasure the good times you had together, treaure the memories you have of him. I know this sounds kinda wrong but try and adjust to him not being around whilst he still is. Remeber to stay strong, for him and yourslef.

[RockstarRocks]

i lost my dad in 2005. i was told he only had 5 years left to live. turned out he died after 3. i no what its like to hear these things. it is hard at first u will feel ur life is never going to be the same. it wont but u learn to live that way and it becomes normal and ull be urself again. u will think of ur friend every day. but will be able to cope after a wile. it is hard at first but hang in there u will be ok.

[Fiction]

I'm really sorry about your dad :( I was told similar about my dad a few years ago but then he had life saving surgery, but i was young and wasn't told at the time. Thanks for your help :)

[RockstarRocks]

ty and ur welcome. if u ever want to talk u can. i love helping others. if i could feel everyones pain and be the most miserbol person in the world. just so noone would have to feel sad. i would do it in a heart beat.

[Fiction]

Aww that's so sweet :') Thankyou.

[closed]

Oh Kathy, that's awful :(
I know what u r feeling. The best thing to do is to cry, and let everything out.
And then only time will cure it. Sorry that there is nothing else to do about it.
:hug: you know you can always talk to me, right? :hug:

[Vkid]

hope everything turns out ok for you, keep going!

[RockstarRocks]

ty fiction

[Fiction]

Thanks everyone that has replied :) It helps just to know there are so many people here for me so thank you.