xgeekyrocksx
November 24th, 2010, 11:39 AM
i dont know whether im posting in the right section but anyway:
my mum randomly brings the subject of me self harming up. i dont do it anymore, im working on it i guess, but still whenever i do something wrong she always goes back to that.
Like a couple of days ago she found a massive scratch down the side of the bath and she went mental... i dont shout at my mum but i did speak harshly, and i felt so guilty afterwards, its just i cant help saying im not dumb enough to make a scratch with a razor down the side of the bath while cutting myself.... this lead to a "lets check for scars while swearing" thing.
i thought that maybe i could wear short sleeves but im too embarresed and scared to do that becaus im sure she is gonna start telling me that i feel she is a bad mother, and that im an attention seeker, i make her sick and so on... it happens enough for me to think that :(
i never did tell my parents the reason behind my self harm because whenever tried to, she just began saying that im talking bullshit and that all of what i say is a load of excuses.... i wish she would... not get over it, but maybe let me talk a bit more.. i dont know, this is just another one of them rant/complaint things :rolleyes:
my mum randomly brings the subject of me self harming up. i dont do it anymore, im working on it i guess, but still whenever i do something wrong she always goes back to that.
Like a couple of days ago she found a massive scratch down the side of the bath and she went mental... i dont shout at my mum but i did speak harshly, and i felt so guilty afterwards, its just i cant help saying im not dumb enough to make a scratch with a razor down the side of the bath while cutting myself.... this lead to a "lets check for scars while swearing" thing.
i thought that maybe i could wear short sleeves but im too embarresed and scared to do that becaus im sure she is gonna start telling me that i feel she is a bad mother, and that im an attention seeker, i make her sick and so on... it happens enough for me to think that :(
i never did tell my parents the reason behind my self harm because whenever tried to, she just began saying that im talking bullshit and that all of what i say is a load of excuses.... i wish she would... not get over it, but maybe let me talk a bit more.. i dont know, this is just another one of them rant/complaint things :rolleyes: