Looking at the scars

[misguided ghost]

When I look down at my scars I'm conflicted. I look at them and regret them but one part of me doesn't want to regret them. I look at them and think I shouldn't regret them cause I learned from them. But on the other hand I still have slip ups so does that mean I didn't learn anything? I regret them because sometimes I feel like they reflect a mistake I've made. When I look at my scars I remember everytime I cut and why. It brings the bad memmories back. The scars are a representation of all the pain I've experienced. Then I also feel like I shouldn't regret themm cause it helped me get through things much quicker. Does anyone else feel like this?

[hotandgay]

no...i use the rubber band so that i dont cut...but i do understand...i use music for bad memories...i listen to rap and country to put bad memories in thats why i dont listen to rap or country...lol if you need any help hun feel free to contact me...i have a lot of useful tips

[Punk_Kid]

Misguided, if you do slip up don't beat yourself up for it because that won't make you feel any better.

Accept that you slipped up and try and try again. When I look at my scars on my arms it brings back my deepest thoughts of depression and suicide. So try to look at it as a representation of an addiction that you have to stop doing and break because that's what it is.

But NEVER beat yourself up for it! I'm here if you want to chat via PM or VM. I'll be hunting and busy at a friend's house today but I'll be back at about 8 PM Eastern:D

[Harley Quinn]

Usually when i look at my scars, i hate them, and they make me realise that i made a bad mistake and that i should learn from them. I have learnt from them and usually when i see what i have done it deters me from ever doing it again. My thighs are covered in scars, and i hate looking at them when i have to shower, or whatever, it's going to be even harder when it comes to doing swimming for gcse PE, but that's life. Some have faded really well and that's something that i like seeing, but there's also the times where i look at my arm ones (there isn't many there) and it makes me think that maybe i should be proud, as they show that there has been struggles, but because they've scared, they're part of me, and every part of me is beautiful. I know that's a messed up way of viewing it, but that's what reminds me that i don't need to do it anymore, looking.

We all slip up, it happens to every single one of us, and it's always will until we ourself fight back regain that control we so desperately need. We have to slip up, otherwise we'd be stuck fighting a never ending cycle. Look at this way, if we were all perfect, what sort of world would we actually be living in? It wouldn't be practical, and we wouldn't have these slip ups that help us reach the end of fighting. We just have to pick ourselves up, look ahead and keep on being strong.

/rantpostylongthing :P

[misguided ghost]

Thanks all of you :)