Is This Deppresion?

[-=D=-]

Sometimes, like today at school, I just stop. Everything. I don't talk to anyone, and if a teacher calls on me, I tell them I don't know. My grades are falling, and I can't pay attention sometimes in class.
Even when I'm with my girlfriend, I get depressed. I always feel guilty for things that aren't really my fault. Sometimes I cut, or write poety about suicide. I just want to know if this is depression.

[schrei jess]

To have clinical depression, you pretty much have to have those symptoms that Anthony listed all the time. Depression is an all the time thing, and doesnt leave after bad things happen, it's always there. So if you always feel low, unhappy, dont care kind of attitude etc. then it is very likely you do have clinical depression.

[-=D=-]

hmmm...well I don't know, I don't always stay depressed. Some days I feel really good, and then someone will say something, it may not even relate to me, or I'll just feel depressed for no reason. Then like, 10 minuets later, I can sit around and laugh with my friends. They ask me why I'm depressed and I can't answer them. I just am.

[-=D=-]

oh...errrr how can you have something nearly every day and all day and have something elese nealrly every day and all day. if that wasent in their i'd be ok. i go from errrr...don't want to say this but have to addict to errrr yeah..."inapropriate" matter to... not even wanting to talk to my best friends for a few days at a time, and then just "ok".

[-=D=-]

well things that im not allowed by the law to watch.

[Bobby]

So your talking about porn? So watching porn makes you feel semi-normal? Is that what your saying?

[schrei jess]

If you do not feel depressed all the time, then you dont have clinical depression. Like Anthony said, it could be bipolar disorder, but for it to be that you have to have depressive episodes as well as manic episodes. Im pretty sure the episodes last more than a day, I may be wrong. What your talking about sounds like extreme mood swings, but Im not a doctor.

[-=D=-]

wow...confusing. how do you know all this?

[-=D=-]

well i told my dad i thought i had some form of depression and got all pissed at me like..."just because its in the family doesnt mean you have it. mental illnesses arent just some joke. you don't have it and (even though i said nothing to him about this) add has nothing to do with depression." i don't even bring up the subject with him cuz he'll probaly yell at me.

[weber]

whoa, now that I've read the symptoms I fulfill many of them… I knew I was messed up but not that much…

[schrei jess]

whoa, now that I've read the symptoms I fulfill many of them… I knew I was messed up but not that much…

You are not messed up. Because if you have clinical depression and you say you are messed up - then so are the rest of us, and I know Im not messed up - Im just in a lot of emotional distress, and if you have this, then so are you.

[-=D=-]

well i got totally yelled at by my gf cuz she found out bout the porn thing so i tried to stop...it was really hard but i stopped! i havent in more than a month...so im like yeahy. but now i doubt i can keep myself alive, she just broke up with me, and its only nite one and im on the self-harm calender. what will day 2 be like?
Also...its been getting worse, now i get depressed for like a day at a time...usually i can find SOMETHING to make me be a little happy but now i cant sometimes. ugh.

[quackcow]

i wouldn't feel bab about breaking up, in high school we really should just see alot of people to know what traits we like in a mate. lol sorry amte sounds funny to me oh and i doubt you know what love is. I sure as hell dont, even though it feels like shit i'd just try to see the humor in how ridiculuos the whole process is or try to see the humor in the situation, at least thats what i try to do. Even if you cant you can laugh at youreslf for crying or feeling so upset for somthing you cant control. I dont know if i helped that much casue i started to ramble anyway good luck

[Φρανκομβριτ]

these do seam like signs of depression. For more information, or advice, see your family docotr. If you would like to seek therapy, you can get information from your doctor, or school guidance counciler. Everyone here is also here to talk to, though I more than anyone understand that sometimes there isnt even a reason for it, and theres nothing to talk about.

[terith]

Ive been feeling like that too hun,and when I told my mom,I knew she didn't belive me,cuz I know what happens when my parents gets "bad" news like that,
I haven't been diagnosed with Clinical depression but we will all find out about that,well im sorry sbout your dad yelling at you,*hugs*:)