Doll
November 21st, 2010, 03:33 PM
So, there's this girl I like... She's one of about four or five people that know I'm Pansexual. She's straight, or at least that's what she says, but I don't think she is.
She's always talking about how ugly she is and how fat she is, and she knit picks at herself and says she's horrible.
Honestly?
She's gorgeous, and she has the most amazing personality- Everything she does is adorable, and she's just so sweet.
We've known eachother for forever, and I've liked her for a while.
But there's someone else that likes her, too.
One of my other best friends is pan, too, and she likes her. Whenever the three of us are together she's always all over her- Like if she's sitting, she'll tell her to come sit on her lap. We had a sleepover and she didn't let her out of her arms pretty much the whole time- She wraps her arms around her stomach, under her shirt, and just kind of rub-holds her. I dunno. And she licks her a lot- she gave her a hickey. And since we're starting a cosplay group [Death Note] she always talks about how since she's Matt and my girl is Mello, she's gonna rape her [Not literally xD Joking, since MattxMello is a common pairing. Like, the friendly kind of rape.] My girl looks like it's awkward kind of, sometimes, like she's kind of uncomfortable, but it's not like she tries to stop it. I can't even look at them when they're like that, it bothers me so much... Thing is I kind of like the other girl, too. Not nearly as much as the first, though. But it makes me kind of jealous, and because of that I find myself getting angry with her and the things she does and I just don't know what to do about it. It's not like I can tell either of them, and I really don't want to lose a friend, or to see them end up together... That would kill me. It's weird because my girl acts like she likes me, but then like she likes the other girl, and the other girl will do what she does to my girl sometimes to me if I let her. But not to anyone else- Just us two.
Anyone have any advice, or solutions?
She's always talking about how ugly she is and how fat she is, and she knit picks at herself and says she's horrible.
Honestly?
She's gorgeous, and she has the most amazing personality- Everything she does is adorable, and she's just so sweet.
We've known eachother for forever, and I've liked her for a while.
But there's someone else that likes her, too.
One of my other best friends is pan, too, and she likes her. Whenever the three of us are together she's always all over her- Like if she's sitting, she'll tell her to come sit on her lap. We had a sleepover and she didn't let her out of her arms pretty much the whole time- She wraps her arms around her stomach, under her shirt, and just kind of rub-holds her. I dunno. And she licks her a lot- she gave her a hickey. And since we're starting a cosplay group [Death Note] she always talks about how since she's Matt and my girl is Mello, she's gonna rape her [Not literally xD Joking, since MattxMello is a common pairing. Like, the friendly kind of rape.] My girl looks like it's awkward kind of, sometimes, like she's kind of uncomfortable, but it's not like she tries to stop it. I can't even look at them when they're like that, it bothers me so much... Thing is I kind of like the other girl, too. Not nearly as much as the first, though. But it makes me kind of jealous, and because of that I find myself getting angry with her and the things she does and I just don't know what to do about it. It's not like I can tell either of them, and I really don't want to lose a friend, or to see them end up together... That would kill me. It's weird because my girl acts like she likes me, but then like she likes the other girl, and the other girl will do what she does to my girl sometimes to me if I let her. But not to anyone else- Just us two.
Anyone have any advice, or solutions?