Abuse

[weber]

I'm responding to the post of Abuse (I think it's blocked so that is why I'm posting here)... anyway I guess I’m at # 2 (sexual abuse) and 4(social abuse), but I never had the balls to tell anyone, well I have told one friend about #2, he’s really helpful, but since he didn’t pass through that he doesn’t really know … and I’m not so sure Why I’m posting this, but I wanna let it out of me, get rid of the weight of that shit for ever. This happened when I was little (like 5 or 6) I regret not telling anyone by then and I don’t wanna do it now cause nobody is gonna believe me, and make fun of me..... I feel a bit better by telling this, though embarrassed at the same time, I feel as if I was somewhere quiet and dark and suddenly I’m surrounded by lots of lights and a dozen of people staring at me.

[mRojas2000]

Don't worry!! :hug: We are all here to help you out... I've never been abused (that I remember, actually [I lived with a really mean man once]), and I understand it... I just can't stand someone being abused.. I swear!
This forum, is specially to let yourself out, and if you need it, get help :).
From what I know, most childs that were abused don't tell anyone fearing that the abuser would kill him, or his family/parents/loved ones... I can understand you feeling about regreting it, and thinking people make fun of you if they tell them... don't let yourself down if it really bothers you, just go forward, and don't look backwards :).
No need to feel embarrased man :) we aren't going to eat you ;) We are here to help you, and listen to you, even if some don't undersand!

Cuidate!!

Miguel

[Bobby]

Most people are nervous about admitting they were abused. Have you ever considered telling the police about the sexual abuse?

[weber]

no, but to tell the truth I don't think that would do much since I don't have any proof that it happened, except for some images in my mind that I want to forget and really hope that nobody passes trough that, luckily it was only one time… I guess that by doing this I’m getting ready to let go and move on (hopefully)

[mRojas2000]

You know you can do it :)

[Bobby]

As long as you are able to move on, and forget things will be fine. Otherwise, someone else (a conselor or someone along those lines) needs to step in.

[weber]

I guess so, but right now this is working (it’s easier cause I don’t have to say it in person) and I’m feeling ok at the moment. Tough some times it’s crazy I go from OK to all depressed…. That asshole changed my fucking life… some times I just wonder what would have happened if none of this got into my life… I would also like to go back in time and tell myself no to go in there… but heck what’s done it’s done and the only thing that I can do about it is try to forget it and move on, if not I’m gonna get help.

[Bobby]

Don't look back on the past, look into the future.

[weber]

I will, now I'm just trying to sort things out a bit

[John_McC]

just let everything thing out, nobody here will make fun of you or insult for it!
that's the great thing about this site, you can just come out and say things you wouldn't normally!

[weber]

Yeah I know… though I don’t think I’m letting everything out just now idk why, but I guess it just takes time… it would have been great if I just went back in time and prevent my little self from playing hide and seek with that friend, and most of all from going to hide in that room (his older brother) I don’t know what exactly happened but next thing I remember is him touching me and making me touch him….. anyway, too disgusting to explain details… it’s just coming back (now that I think of it) and I don’t wanna remember it….. that asshole fucked my life in so many ways…..
Thanks for the support though, never thought I would get as much:)

[Jordo]

well try to let go whats in the past should stay in the past but you really should tell some one

[Meister]

i havn't told anyone about this but when i was about 5-6 i was taken advantage of by this dick weed who was 10. i had no idea wat we wer doing. I thought we wer just playing a game. but reflecting on wat happened those years ago it really makes me want to beat the shit out of them but the i realise that that makes me just as bad. well not AS bad but quite close

[*lynn*]

have you told anyone about it?