Why Cant i stop!?!

[Love.Hate]

I have just done nine cuts on my thigh.
And punched a wall so hard, my knuckle is all Red and swollen :/
This time, my mum isnt going to know! im not going to tell anyone.

Last night i was up until one thirty crying non stop, with mum.
She doesnt seem to understand that crying just isnt good enough for me.

This morning my sister had the worst arguement with mum she has ever had.
It involved punching me, biting mum and swearing constantly. Then
getting her own way :/

When she left i was so angry, how can she treat her own mother like that?
Why does she always want more? What she gets is never good enough!
Urggghh i hate it she is so rude and has no respect for anyone or anything.
Mum was so close to tears. I was in tears (well in the shower so no one saw).
And right now i am very stressed. On thursday i have my spanish speaking exam, which i cant seem to learn (it just doesnt stay in my head) and then
five days after i have my french :(

I am so dissapointed with myself today was the 11th day since i last
cut, and this time i really did try hard. :(

Thankyou for reading this, and sorry about my rant :(

[RAWWR]

*hugs* i'm so sorry hun, family is a pain in the ass, but beleive me, it's ok, it's fine to slip up, 11 days is AMAZING! the truth is, you will slip up a million times, but you have to keep trying, next time, go for 12 days, then 13, take it one day at a time, if you slip up, just start again, it doesnt matter, because what matters is that you get back up and try again, and eventually you will beat it!

[whereismymind]

Your sister sounds like a C U Next Tuesday tbh look your trying your best so keep going everyone makes mistakes so don't worry and don't give up. Feel free to message me if you need to talk good luck :)

[Mike321]

Well done for the 11 days, thats good
I'm sorry to hear what your going through, but try not to be too hard on yourself, maybe put some ice on your knuckle.
Your sister shouldnt treat your mom like that, its not right.
I know how the stress of exams feel, and it can really take it out on you, but try and relax you just do the best you can, thats what I did, then atleast you know you tried your best.
We've all had slip ups, but dont let it get you down, just pick yourself back up and start again, it doesnt matter how many times you have to start again, you'll get there in the end.
And of course feel free to message me if you need a chat

[Fiction]

As everyone has said, 11 days is amazing. You are of course going to slip up. It's not slipping up that makes you a failure, it's if you don't pick yourself back up.
My sister can be like that alot too, she has anger management issues and mild OCD so yeah... it's not fun living with her. So i know how you feel.
As for the exams, just do your best because that's all you can do. IU have my German controlled assesment next week too and i'm gonna fail :P
Sorry that kinda went on to talking about me :P just saying i know how you feel and you can always talk to me if you ever need anyone to talk to :)

[Love.Hate]

Thankyou for all the replys :)

I will keep trying and i will beat 11 days,

And kathy good luck with your german :)

[Fiction]

Thankyou for all the replys :)

I will keep trying and i will beat 11 days,

And kathy good luck with your german :)

Lol thanks i'll need it :P And you too with your spanish and French :)

[bvboy]

What everyone said is good. And I really hope u can stop again, but it seems like ur sister has as much problems as u do, maybe u should try helping her, reach out ur hand if u can, cus, even though she sounds pretty annoying, I believe no one is born a bitch. She is probably goin through some awful things herself, and need to get help. Try helping her.
Sometimes I find that helping other people can help me forget my own problems for a while, which is good. It takes your mind off things. So by helping her, you'll be helping urself as well.
Anyway it's your choice. Good Luck with everything.

[xxxShayxxx]

ur whole lot better than me at least :P
i couldn't stop for more than 2 nights. but i really think it's a good thing to try hard to stop :). i'm pretty impressed. i hope i can get better at stop cutting as u r