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XxMurderedKissesxX
November 19th, 2010, 07:59 PM
Disgusting, torchered, useless. A fucking nothing. Thats all I am. My fam is clearly pissed at me because im no longer hiding any of my depression, so when im called into the room to "talk" I dont think anything of it. I forgot to wash away the blood in the bathroom sink. Needless to say I was screamed at and forced to speak my utmost private thoughts. I feel violated. I was pushed to the point I had an emotional break down and couldnt do anything but bawl my eyes out. Im so angry, at both myself and them. I dont know what to do. Im more numb then ever, not to mention humiliated. They were talking about searching my room, giving me body cheaks, sending me to a hospital, taking away my phone & my pets. . All my trust in them is gone. Replaced with vile hatred. I just, dont know what to do.

Fiction
November 19th, 2010, 08:36 PM
Your parents are just upset, and they want to do what they can to help. They just don't know what the best thing for them to do is. Try talking to them maybe, without getting too emotional although i know this will be hard. Maybe ask them if you can have some kinda of medical help?

UnknownError
November 19th, 2010, 08:41 PM
Sorry to here that. :(
Like Kathy said, they are probably just upset and wanting to help you.
You should try and convince them to maybe take you to a counciller, and get some help there, rather than going to the hospital.
Good luck.

CatchingOrigami
November 19th, 2010, 08:54 PM
One of the most horrific things for a parent to have is their child hurting themselves.
I bet they want you to stop more than anything, but have no idea how to properly confront the situation, and are angry at themselves because they feel they havnt raised you well enough.

They are most likely terrified and confused and hurt, which would explain their rash actions. Try not to hate them. Try and see it from their point of view.
My mother did a whole lot of traumatic things till she began to get it right and start helping me.

They do hurtful things, because they often wont realise its hurtful. most likely because you wont say.
Help them to help you.
Be patient with them, they love you.

Mike321
November 20th, 2010, 02:07 PM
Sorry to hear whats happening, must be terrible to be in that position
I think they do want to help you and are upset, but they dont know the right way to go about it.
Try and talk to them and explain how your feeling, and try to make them realise the things they are doing are hurtful to you, chances are all they want to do is help you
Hope this helps, you can PM me if you need to talk

misguided ghost
November 20th, 2010, 04:39 PM
I've felt the same way about my parents. When I told my mom family that I cut they were all concerned then one day my sister said that my cutting was stupid. My parents didn't even back me up. Then my mom took my door off and I felt like she didn't trust me enough to keep myself safe. That just made me think that I wasn't respected. Then one day I realized there was a reason for all of this. It's not that they didn't trust me it's just that they thought what they were doing was gonna help.