Too much death

[CatchingOrigami]

I want people around me to stop dying. For at least 6 months.

[Bmatlman]

what. that sounds horrible. do you mean your family, friends or both?

[CatchingOrigami]

Everyone. Everyone must stop dying. Right now.

[Bmatlman]

I wish that could happen. We all wish that could happen.

[CatchingOrigami]

I really really do. Theres been too much death these past few months. I hate it. It's like being hit, and then kicked while youre down.
You barely get a chance to realise that someones permanently gone when someone else goes and dies.

Warren dies, then we hear of Zanes death the next day. Too fucking much.

[Tristin.]

death is inevitable, but coping with it is something we all find hard, once you accept it and understand it it gets a little easier, its still hard, but atleast there is a difference, this worked for me when i lost my grandmother :)

[Bmatlman]

thats horrible. I understand if you dont want to answer this but what happend.

also my great grandparents died within a week of each other. great grand mother died day before my birth day

I agree with tristin

[Tristin.]

you asking me or......

[Bmatlman]

no. but you can tell if you want

[CatchingOrigami]

But when you can see it coming, its easier. When jennifer died, we all knew she was dead in her mind at least two months before she physically passed away, we had time to grieve, so that the passing was more relief that she wasnt suffering.

People drop dead without warning. callum and his aneurysm, warrens heart attack, Zane had a fit in the bath, Paul hung himself, Meg had a heart attack, Mark just completely dissapeared.. too many. too fucking many.
How the fuck are you supposed to prepare yourself for something like that? Just dissapearing.

[Bmatlman]

.................................. i dont know what to say. i cant imagine at all what that must be like. all i can say is what ever happens from now on is that i want you to promise that you will not join them. plz promise me that.

[CatchingOrigami]

I dont make promises, because I can never be sure that I'll keep them.

[Bmatlman]

I have problumes keeping promises but at least when i tell someone i will do something and i mean it, it helps me do what ever i said id do

[CatchingOrigami]

I dont want to risk hurting anyone again.

[Bmatlman]

you wont hurt me. it hurts me more that you wont promise me that. and dont say sorry and dont fell bad about it either. i just want to be able to belive there is some hope.

[CatchingOrigami]

I dont know about hope. I cant think about the future. I'm taking it a day at a time, and who knows what will happen tomorrow.

[Bmatlman]

tomarrow you will do what ever you normaly do mabie come on here and say something then go to bed.

[CatchingOrigami]

I dont think I will. I dont think tomorrow will be bad. Im going to stay at a friends house. I dont want to be alone.

[Bougainvillea]

I know exactly how you. Almost too perfectly. It's really upsetting, but you have to remember that some things happen. I think it's the inevitability and how quick these things happen. I still haven't gotten over most things. But I do my best to not think about them and continue on with my life. It's hard. But it's all you can do.

[Bmatlman]

i agree with them.and its good that you dont think that tomarro will be bad. i hope you and you friend have fun.

[CatchingOrigami]

I think we will, he has feelings for me though, and I'm staying at his because he lives quite far away. I just hope he doesnt try anything.

[Bmatlman]

lol. well if its your first time then he probubly wont.

[CatchingOrigami]

He hasnt known me very long, but tbh, I wouldnt put it past him.

[Bmatlman]

well all i can say on that is have fun and stay safe.

[CatchingOrigami]

Stay safe? I certainly dont intend to have sex with him, if we do it'll be rape, and generally rapists dont worry about contraception.

[Bmatlman]

i know its just stay safe like if he does try stuff im saying that you know what to do.