skribbles23
November 17th, 2010, 12:43 AM
A few months ago, during a depressive episode I was stupid enough to look for someone to talk to online as no one was home and my parents and I don't get along too great. So I went chat room surfing and met a guy who told me he knew what I was going through. He comforted me and told me nice things. We went on skype and chatted some more, I don't want to go into major details if what happened. But he seemed to really understand me and was kind to me. One night he said he really wanted to talk to me and that night my parents found out and rescued me. I realized what he really was, he used my sadness as a way to get close to me, I felt that he was a friend. All he wanted was to use me for his sick little way of getting off. I was never hurt physically by him but emotionally it's insanely painful. I was angry at him for so long and now all I want is answers. Why he did this me, I can't stop seeing him when I close my eyes, what he felt while coercing me, how many he'd dine this too. He's ruining my life, the strain on my relationships with parents is even greater, I wake up yelling because of what I see when I dream. Now I'm afraid that I'll turn into someone like him. I feel sorry for him also because he obviously doesnt have a friend in the world, never had true happiness. I don't know if I'll get an answer but I really need help, I'm suffocating.