you know you shouldn't...

[ShinigamiMaiden]

you know you shouldn't do it.
that you'll regret it so much...but we do it anyway? we don't even want to. There's just something somewhere telling us we have to.
i've been a while now without cutting..i'd say 3 months. i haven't been depressed in that long ethier. i'm doing pretty well.
but tonight i've had a rush of emotion...and i feel like i need to do it. and when i get like this i can't control myself :(

[georgiamay]

3 months is brilliant. Like you said, you'll regret it so much after you've done it, so why throw away 3 months for just a few seconds of releif?

whatever it is that's made you have a rush of emotion will still be there after you've cut, hurting yourself won't change anything. We both know that it's not worth it. In the long run, it does more harm than good.

You might feel like you need it, but you don't actually need it, no one does. No one needs to cut. Find something to distract yourself. Call a friend, or get out of the house and go somewhere, go somewhere crowded. Maybe if your parents are somewhere in the house, go and talk to them. Do anything to get your mind off hurting yourself.

You can PM me anytime if you need someone to talk to, I'm always here :hug3:

[MadManWithaBox]

You've gotten this far. Why give up now cos of one rush of negative emotion? That's a bad voice in your head. Ignore it. Talk to someone. Pm me. Anything.

[Bath]

I know the feeling. You want to, but.. it's wrong. It's a simple emotion but causes the most complicated problems.

[Fiction]

3 months is just amazing, it really is. Keep going because yo know you'll regret it. What will cutting actually do, offer a few minutes release? Is it REALLY worth it for that? No it's not. Try to distract yourself until the urge is over. If you ever want to talk you can always contact me :)

[Mike321]

3 months is really, really good, so well done
You dont want to give up now, you kow you will regret it after, it really isnt worth it
Try and find something to distract yourself and take your mind off it
I know its hard but you dont want to throw away 3 months of hard work
Hope everythings alright

[Syvelocin]

Yep, I know how that is. You want to forget everything, block everything out that would deter you from cutting, because otherwise, you wouldn't want to. That's at least how I function. I'm upset, so I go straight to the bedroom, not another word out of my mouth, and grab a razor right when I walk through the door. Because I'm not thinking then. I won't second-guess it, I won't hesitate, I won't hold back on how deep I cut.

It's afterward. You have to think about what happens after you make that cut, after the endorphins wear off. You'll be guilty. You'll regret doing it. You'll think of everyone who has been supporting you, and how much you think they'll be disappointed. You didn't think about your parents or your sibling or your best friend or your partner. You thought only of your self, and acted in the moment. In the long run, self-harm does nothing, if it doesn't make it harder on yourself. And then you have to live with the scars. Get married. Have kids. Endure your spouse/children/grandchildren asking you where you got those scars.

I can't even go three months. I envy you. So push yourself. Go further than that. Four months, five months. You'll have to start the counter all over just for that couple minutes of relief.