Mental Crises. V.2.0

[Waiting]

well, ive been off school now for a total of 6weeks,
im loosing touch with reality, how to socilise..
just about loosing touch with everything...
i hate to see my life fall apart, i have a box office view,
im in complete control of it aswell
all i need to do is go back to school
but its almost like i have a cmplete fear of the place
i dont think its possible and im just being irrational
but i havnt stepped foot in the place since a few days before i od'd
and im real scared ot go back
i got rejected from another school
and eveyrthings falling apart
ergh, it frustrates me so bad.

i also have my first councilling appointment on monday..
also very scary
i dont kno whow i will react
or how im supposed to react
its all so scary
but ergh...is it a good thing?

the most annoying thing is, its felt like this is getting me nowhere

if anyone can be bothered to reply to this, i dontneed 10 responses saying hope u feel better bladebla...i just need...advice...and well maybe a little love

Peace out

- Mute
xx

edit:
Laura, would you please give me a point of view,
whats it like at school...how do you think people woul dreact at a return?

[-Silence]

I'm sorry I didn't see this earlier, Patch.

With school--do the students know what happened?
Socializing will be really hard the first few days,
but it'll slowly come back. It'll be "normal" again,
but you have to give it time.

Yes, counseling is a good thing.
The first days of it won't be intense or anything,
usually it's paperwork and a bit of "rules". (the confidentiallity and such)
He/she will most likely ask some questions to get a feel of who you are.
It's okay though, and you're going to do great. :)

Sorry, I wish I knew more to say.
Everything will be okay though, I think your the one that told me,
when things are this low--there's no other way to go but up.

:hug:

Take Care, and lots of love,
Heather

[Waiting]

With school--do the students know what happened?


my brothers girlfriendhates me so she told everyone at my school.. so yes most people know..or at least there is a rumor going round



Sorry, I wish I knew more to say.
Everything will be okay though, I think your the one that told me,



dont worry heather..there isnt much you can say...i think i am...screwed..but it doesnt matter..life goes on...unfortunatly..


peace out

-Mute

xxx

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

You really dont give a shit about anyone


Sincerely,

Matthew

[kevin]

Sorry about my actions earlier Patch, did not mean to offend you, I will edit out the smilies I posted ...

Sorry. I hope things get better for you.

Sincerely,

Thomas

AHHAHAhA! OMG! You're trying to now suck up to patch when you tried to offend him. Not only that, you lied to him too. We all hate you, why are you staying here?

[kevin]

noooooooooo


haHAAAAAAAAA

rawr this is funny i was not trying to suck up to him
i just felt bad for what i did so i said sorry

AHPAIHJfiaeghjweg

BYE BYE

AND IT WASNT SPAM IT WAS JUST TALKING GOSH

No, we still hate you. You don't deserve to be here.

[///James///]

patch dont worry i still love u!

usually when something bad happens (either to you, or to someone else), going back to school can be hard, but you say that ur bro's gf said things in school, well how do you know people are all hating you for that? what did she say, do you know?

dont worry man, im here for you :hugs:

edit: people could be feeling sorry for you, and might want to help you. i know from what classmates have said in class before, that is somone did try and commit suicide, and then they suceeded, and the class were really bad to them, they would feel sorry for them and wish they would never of been so bad. while (if this is about ur attempt to take your life), they might feel sad that they almost lost you, and might want to make sure it doesnt happen to you again.

just what i think

xx