going through a lot

[cbanc]

Well first off hi i am new here and did not see and introduction section like at Govteen which I also belong to!

so anyway I feel like I have been going through a lot lately. Recently I have been diagnosed with clinical depression and almost put in an inpatient ward because of it. I have been on 3 different medications so far and the last two were within less than a week.

Not only that but my dad even lost his job and even though my mom works she does not make too much and i feel horribly guilty because my parents can somehow scrap up enough money to send me to private school, buy me a used car (although I am paying them back for it) and they also just completely redid my room because I finally have it back because my uncle who has been living with my family for three years after a massive stroke finally moved out and it needed it.

And now most recently to top it all off I found out that my girlfriend of 1 year and 7 months that I have been dating since the middle of freshman year of high school and is my first girlfriend cheated on me with my best friend since kindergarten.

It is just really hard to deal with almost all the time and I already struggle with self harm and have even attempted suicide in the past somehow I have been able to not self harm at all for since I found out though. Thanks to anyone who decided to listen to this.

[DrkZ90]

I'm not sure of how to help, other than I read about it and hope you can keep going strong. I'm here for you if you need someone to talk to. I'm really sorry to not have any real advice though :(

[cbanc]

yeah just saying it here helped and thanks for caring I have had to keep it bottled up for a while

[IsabellaJane]

I'm sorry for what you have been through and i hope things get better :)
Sorry i don't have any advice for you
Take care

[Syvelocin]

I'm sure that whole "everything at once" situation can be a huge stressor. It seems the same way for me too right now.

I'm actually glad to hear that you avoided the inpatient care. I've been in and out myself for the past couple years. I've never been able to find anything there that I couldn't have learned from a professional in outpatient, and inpatient care really changed me. Of course, it's a bit different in the juvenile ward, since they can't keep you longer than a certain amount of time.

I know it's hard. But other than therapy and meds, you really just have to stick it out. It will get better, and suicide won't fix it, because then the depression wins. You've already gotten this far, so see it through :)

Take care and you're welcome to VM/e-mail me whenever if you'd like to talk :)

[cbanc]

thanks for the support guys it does help

[nick]

Hi Collin, welcome to VT. I'm on gov too, my username there is JustNick which is also the name I use in vt chat.

I'm being treated for depression atm, my dad has been out of work for just over a year, so I feel some sympathy for your situation. My meds help a lot but it doesnt take much too push me over the edge into severe depression. I try to take the attitude that I wont let the bastards win, but its not always easy. All you can do really is try to stay strong.

Sorry, not much practical help there, happy to talk anytime if you need someone.

[cbanc]

thanks nick I have actually seen you quite a few times over on gov and i noticed you have the same avatar which I like because it makes you easy to remember. And thanks to everyone who posted here trying to help it did make a difference because it stopped me from cutting which I have been able to stay away from for almost a week now which is a big deal for me because I usually rarely last more than a day or two