She Knows.

[Love.Hate]

Ok so, my mum now knows i self harm.
My stupid cow of a sister told her!

We sat down and talked about it, and i feel so guilty i lied to her.
I showed her the hundreds of scars on my arm and told her i only
have ever done it once, i told her that it was last week and i did them all
then. :(

I feel so mean. She said she doesnt know what to do,
There were lots of tears. and she now says she wont let me stay in
my room for a long amount of time on my own.
She said she knows what it feels like to want to kill yourself
because at my age she tried it. And she was very understanding.

But now she has lost all trust in me. And i actually HATE my sister.

Mum is making me show her my arm everyday, to prove that im not doing it anymore, and my legs etc..

Jeez. I wish she would have offered for me to go and talk to a councellor
or something. I feel really shit right now. And im scared she is gonna get
depression again, because of me ! :(

[Fiction]

Fran, it could be a good thing your mum knows. How did your sister find out? And maybe she just told your mum because she was scared and didn't know what else to do? At least you know your mum cares about you and at least she understands. Maybe having her help will be the first step to recovering although you shouldn't have lied to her, and maybe it's not too late to change that. Good luck with it all and you know i'm here if you ever want to talk :)

[laurita_21]

Don't feel bad! Your mum is being really supportive and understanding, maybe your sister was just trying to help.
You might get the help you needed all along! Talk to her and ask her that you want to go see someone about it. When I went to talk someone about my self harm she really helped me out and she told my parents what they could do to help. My parents aren't really good parenst tho so it's still kinda crappy -_-".
But please don't hate your sister for it, she loves you and thats why she told your mum. Let them help you. I know it's hard but it's possible to get over it.
:hug: Don't worry about it ok? It's all going to end and it's all going to be good and you are going to be ok :)

[Mike321]

Maybe this is a good thing for you
I know how bad it can be when someone you didnt want to know finds out, but atleast your mom has been very understanding of it all.
And she's probably keeping a close eye on you becuase she cares and wants to make sure that your alright.
Good luck with everything and I hope you can start to recover fromt his
I'm always here if you need a chat

[Syvelocin]

It's good that she came off as understanding. I do think she's pushing it a bit though. Checking you everyday and not letting you be alone for a long period of time... I see that lying to her can make it hard to not trust you as much, but treating you like this I see zero trust at all from her. Talk to her. Ask for a counselor. That way she can leave her trust with the counselor and the counselor will know what to do.

I don't think that very over-the-top checking is a very good method. She needs to trust you at least a bit. And having to prove to her that you're not self-harming... it doesn't seem the right way to be going about this. I can imagine that it's really difficult to find out that your child is hurting herself, but there really does need to be at least some trust. And just with my experience, when I had a psychologist who did the exact same thing, I would get creative and cut my stomach, my shoulders, the inside of my thighs where she might not see. It never fixed the problem, just made it more of a game to keep it hidden. I stopped cutting my arms very quickly because of this, since wearing short sleeves made it very obvious that I didn't cut, or made her think I didn't.

It might just be because I was raised with a very leniant parent, but I found it most helpful when my mother trusted me and was there for support but not to keep me in a cage.

[Bath]

I know what it's like going through having your mother find out. The hurt in them really is terrible.. but it's all going to be for the best in the end. She wants to help you, at least she's not giving up.

[Love.Hate]

Unfortunatley my sister did it to get back at me, she saw the scars yesterday.
I told mum one of her secrets by accident and she went nuts and told her about my self harm.

We have sat and talked it all out now. she says she still doesnt really know what to do.
But she might take me to a councellor. I know i shouldnt have lied, but it would have broke her heart if she realised i had been doing it for ages.

Thankyou everyone xx