Stressed and depressed

[Mr. Awesome]

Oh where to start........

Im just so worn out, i am now at the point that im struggeling to drag myself out of bed in the morning, im going in late to college, i cant sleep at night.

See my dad is having a hip replacement next week, all im doing is worrying, ive been reading common complications and there is a fucking lot of them, then today i find out that while i was at college today, after being an hour late, my neighbour, who im close with was taken off in an ambulance she's elderly and her daughter 40 is her carer, there so nice and just dont deserve it.

Then theres stress of 4 college projects on the go at the moment, then im worrying about my mom cos shes down lately worring about my dad, who is in pain fucking walking at the moment. When i try to sleep all i can think about is waking up on monday with out a dad, even though its a "safe" operation. When i finally do get asleep i dream about telling my dads friends hes died.

Im given out to for being late to college, i cant focus in class because im just to tired form stressing the night before, i feel depression coming on again, my mom asked me about it tonight, of course i lied because she dosent need another thing to stress about.

God it felt good to get that out

[Bath]

Venting is always a good idea, which you just did, and you said you feel better so that's just the power of venting working. (: You can always trust this forum, that's what I've learned so far.

[closed]

It's okay to be nervous. It's natural. It's good the let it all out. Just always remind to yourself that soon your father is going have a surgery, it will be just fine, as those surgeons are doing this surgery all the time. If you ever need to talk feel free to contact me :)

[myskias]

i understand what its like to worry over somebody going under for surgery :/ its scary! But the best thing that you can do to help is to send positive vibes or pray or do whatever you believe in :) you just have to trust that everything will turn out okay! know that the universe has your back and cares for you. you just have to believe that everything will be okay.. and it will :D

[Beats]

:) Don't worry.. :DD Everything'll work out exactly as it's supposed to. Just hope for the best and stop worrying..(Hope I spelled that right) :P

[Mr. Awesome]

Going to be a long long night, he has his surgery tomorrow morning at 8, its 11.15pm here now, i think my xbox is going to be on for the next few hours

[DrkZ90]

hey if you need someone to talk or play with, I'm here with you :) be strong, and have faith that everything will go ok :)

[Mr. Awesome]

His operation went fine, it was hard seeing him in pain today but atleast its only temporary pain now. I slept through my alarm this morning, i wanted to get up and ring him before, i only got about 5 hours sleep.

spent 6 hours in the hospital, went for some food for a while, not going tomorrow, i know its going to be the hardest day for him and i wont be able to see him like that and im shattered already, my mam will be there though, hopefully will be able to catch up on some sleep, im taking a few days of college, to relax and to be able to see my dad in hospital.