Help..

[sam i am]

I been thinking about suicide again lately. And I don't know why I used to cut myself, than I stopped and went to drinking. I only drink once in a while. but I feel like the drinking doesn't help anymore. To be honest I really don't know what's wrong with me. I never had some one I could talk to about this( best friend,etc) so i usually don't bring this up to people.It's like idk it hard for me to describe. I think I'm crazy. I'm just here really to get an answer on how i can stop thinking about suicide and cutting myself, before I get caught. Please help me out here "/

[Fiction]

Your not crazy, many people on this forum, including me, have felt like this at some point. I've always found that when I feel like committing suicide it usually goes eventually. yeah sometimes it can take a while, longest i've had is about 2 or 3 months, but it does happen eventually. In the mean time you just have to sit tight and find something else to put your focus on. This could be annything like trying to improve your grades at school, or trying to keep your bedroom tidy. Anything.
You said you don't have anyone to talk to, you can always vm/pm or email me if you want to talk :)

[UnknownError]

Like Kathy said your not crazy. I've felt like committing suicide before and even googled least painful ways and stuff like that. The feeling does go away eventually and it could be in a few days, or in a few months. Its always different.
Just remember, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
If you ever want to talk just send me a message. :)

Also, you should read this. 1_21Guns posted it a while ago.

so I just found this on tumblr, figured i'd share it. I usually hate these things for some reason, but I like this one, so here you go;

Are you thinking about suicide? Thinking about how, if you killed yourself, nobody would care? Think again.

If you kill yourself you will change somebodies world. That's right. They will see everything differently. Just hearing your name will burn their mind with memories. They wont be able to go near where you lived, even your town will hold memories. Listening to the radio they'll hear that song, remember,that song you sang with them once? They'll step past your locker every day and wonder why you are not there. Why are you not there??

Do you want to be responsible for your family members, the people who love you, crying every night? For your sisters or brothers losing part of who they are? Your suicide is going to effect most deeply those who care about you most. That's not right. One of your friends may break down, and just like you, their world will be dark.

The pain you are in is awful, but why pass it on to hundreds of people around you, when you could try your hardest to work through it? Your family will be paranoid. Suddenly everyone will be talking about them. Do you want to be known as 'the kid who killed themselves?' People you never knew will be crying when they hear what you've done. Yes, they will be effected. Everyone around you will stop and think ;; "was there something i could have done?" Suddenly the people of your world are dying with guilt. All those little hints you gave, they'll remember them. Oh yes, and it will torture them all the time.

Your friends will think of suicide. Your closest friends are likely to go into a depression like the one that claimed your life. How will they cope, without you? This will break them, for the rest of their lives. And lets not forget the people who will plan your funeral. Your closest friends and family picking out songs for you, photos of you. Crying all the night before, and all the day of your funeral. And all the night after. In fact, they will cry now more than you ever did. Could they have saved you?

They'll be angry. Oh yes. Why didn't you tell them? They loved you. And now it's too late. They'll be angry with you because they know, they know you could have gotten through it. Then they'll be angry with themselves because they may have been able to save you if only they knew.

And one day, one day years from now, they'll remember you. They will all still remember you. The girl that sat up the front of your class; she'll remember you. The bus driver you saw every morning; he'll remember you. That little girl you sat with on the bus once, The kid you leant money to at the shop, all your siblings friends, the people that you dont see, but that see you everyday they will all remember you. And every single one of them will wonder; why?

But imagine your family. You are part of them. Without you, something is missing. If you killed yourself then part of them dies too. They are incomplete. Every family gathering will be missing something. The photos on the wall are suddenly all cold reminders of what you did. Who goes through your bedroom? Who cleans out your locker? Who calls the school to tell them one of their students has died? .. Who tells the students? Who calls the funeral directors? Who arranges a coffin for you? Who calls your best friend to tell them you're dead?? Who finds you? Please, there are other ways out.

I know sometimes the struggle is very, very hard. But it's not worth giving up on life. Life is all we have, life is everything. Its the beautiful moments, and the sad ones. Please, don't give up on all those around you. You can make it through. My teacher said this about her father, who commited suicide: "I understand that the pain is overwhelming, but I will never forgive him for the pain he has caused others. It was just selfish. If you kill yourself you spread the suffering among thousands of people, it doesn't only affect those around you but everyone who has ever come in contact with you."

Please, keep fighting. You can get through this and see that there is life after what you're facing now. It may be hard, but you'll get there, and when you do you will appreciate it so much more. I understand that most people know that suicide effects others, but please keep this in mind if you're ever feeling so low.
Give people the chance to help you.

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[Mike321]

Your not crazy, I too have felt like commiting suicide, I think the last time was about a month ago.
The feeling will go away, but it takes time.
And remember that sucide is never the answer, no matter how bad lifes problems gets its never worth it.
And you can talk to me anytime