Andredavid
November 9th, 2010, 08:04 PM
idk if this is the right place to out this but o well.
Ok so over these past 6 months id say about from june to now. I ve moved away from my home state (colorado) to my mums home state illinois. Its been so hard trying to get over the fact that i will mostlikely never see all of my friends. I had those type of friends where we literally were like brothers. I had a russian friend we told every one we were bros lol. He was teaching me russian, his parents treated me like their own and same with my parents toward him. But any ways, it has been hard to handle the big leave and on top of that it was like the begining of the summe, and i never got to tell any one good bye or anything it was so sudden. And im a junior in the high school so it s like wtf. Then me and my mum started a long series of fights. At least 6 of the 7 days we would be arguing about the littlist things. An she makes me so mad.and of course my little bro is a major pain in the ass. Since ive been in illinois ive gotten so sick like life threatening sick, i have mad no good friends and its so boring here there is nothing to do. So me and mi " russian bro"still keep in touch. But ive been so mad at the world that every time we talki always end up talking crap to him or about him. And i know its not right but i still do it just out of anger of my whole situation. I go to bed sometimes crying like crazy. Just thinking about it all. And i get this horrible pain in my chest but its like a feeling of major emptiness that pain. And its so much to handle.I even gat the feeling that it would be so moch easire if id just ran away or killed myself.
But
There is so moch more but its so much idk if i can even put it into the right words and tell you guys how or what im feeling.
Any advise or words of wisdom, or even if i can talk to some one that feels or is going through the same thing message me please!!!
PLEASE AND THANK YOU!!!
Ok so over these past 6 months id say about from june to now. I ve moved away from my home state (colorado) to my mums home state illinois. Its been so hard trying to get over the fact that i will mostlikely never see all of my friends. I had those type of friends where we literally were like brothers. I had a russian friend we told every one we were bros lol. He was teaching me russian, his parents treated me like their own and same with my parents toward him. But any ways, it has been hard to handle the big leave and on top of that it was like the begining of the summe, and i never got to tell any one good bye or anything it was so sudden. And im a junior in the high school so it s like wtf. Then me and my mum started a long series of fights. At least 6 of the 7 days we would be arguing about the littlist things. An she makes me so mad.and of course my little bro is a major pain in the ass. Since ive been in illinois ive gotten so sick like life threatening sick, i have mad no good friends and its so boring here there is nothing to do. So me and mi " russian bro"still keep in touch. But ive been so mad at the world that every time we talki always end up talking crap to him or about him. And i know its not right but i still do it just out of anger of my whole situation. I go to bed sometimes crying like crazy. Just thinking about it all. And i get this horrible pain in my chest but its like a feeling of major emptiness that pain. And its so much to handle.I even gat the feeling that it would be so moch easire if id just ran away or killed myself.
But
There is so moch more but its so much idk if i can even put it into the right words and tell you guys how or what im feeling.
Any advise or words of wisdom, or even if i can talk to some one that feels or is going through the same thing message me please!!!
PLEASE AND THANK YOU!!!