Dont know

[diStURbEd]

I dont Know why I did but I did.

I tried to stop today, I threw away the damn broken peice of glass that started it all. But I snapped..ended up taking the erasor out of the end of a pencil and scraping my wrist untill it bled.

I am ashamed for doing all of the cuts, always having to make a lame ass excuse for why I got it. I dont want to be "emo" I guess its how I relieve stress



Im the guy that you wave to in the hallway, has a lot of friends...goes to parties.
But I have a secret that now everyone is seeing, Im finally coming out..Dont know why here but I am. It has gotton to the point where it doesnt hurt when i cut.
It feels good


When I see the blood it just makes me think that my problems go with it. Its sorta like a high


I need help

[Bobby]

First of all don't be ashamed of cutting, many peope do it. Just because you you cut doens't make you "emo" I hate that word.
I'm the same as you, popular, lots of friends. But we all have some secrets and flaws that are better meant not to be said publically.

[schrei jess]

First of all, being a cutter does not mean you are "emo". You dont know how many people I've yelled at and cursed at because they thought they knew everything about "emos" and cutting. No. Just, no. Being emo is a lame ass excuse for being too pathetic to deal with whatever the hell you really are. Emos think it's cool to cut yourself, pretend to be depressed, and talk about suicide etc. etc. That makes me so mad. If I could shoot whoever made up that stupid label, Id do it in a heartbeat. Emos give us depressed, suicidal, cutters a terrible name - well, worse then the one we'd have to begin with. If you think it's cool to want to be dead every second of every day. You suck. If you think it's cool to hurt yourself in anyway, You suck. And if you think it's cool to pretend to be in the black fog that is depression, YOU SUCK. Id give anything to get rid of all of that, and it's retarded when there are people sitting around wishing they had all of that. Go to hell, that is all I have to say to those people.

Okay, sorry, I went all off, lol, see that's what happens when you get me started on the emo subject.

Anyway, yes, cutting is definetly a high. But after that quick high goes away, you're left in a worse place then you were in to start with. But cutters forget that, all we can think about is that exciting high, and the sight of the bright red blood. And trust me, we've all been there, coming up with the clearly fake excuses. I always forget to wear long sleeves, and then people see my wrist and arm covered in straight, long cuts. I'd tell them my dog scratched me up when we were playing tug-o-war. Yeah. A lie. Someone finally brought up the point that if my dog did that, they wouldnt be neat and straight. So trust me, we all know how that is, you arent alone.

I cant relate to you with the whole being popular and having a great social life but still feeling depressed issue. I have maybe 4 friends. I feel completely isolated most days. But this isnt about me :whoops:

Do you know why you are doing this? Has anything upsetting happened to you, any extreme stress etc.?

[Makod]

If you think it's cool to want to be dead every second of every day. You suck. If you think it's cool to hurt yourself in anyway, You suck. And if you think it's cool to pretend to be in the black fog that is depression, YOU SUCK.

Took the words right out of my mouth.

[megamikey59]

Anyway, yes, cutting is definetly a high. But after that quick high goes away, you're left in a worse place then you were in to start with. But cutters forget that, all we can think about is that exciting high, and the sight of the bright red blood. And trust me, we've all been there, coming up with the clearly fake excuses. I always forget to wear long sleeves, and then people see my wrist and arm covered in straight, long cuts. I'd tell them my dog scratched me up when we were playing tug-o-war. Yeah. A lie. Someone finally brought up the point that if my dog did that, they wouldnt be neat and straight. So trust me, we all know how that is, you arent alone.
cutting is not a high.. you can get addicted to cutting.. but everytime i cut myself i end up crying.. well i cry all thoughout the cut.. and aren't emos people that are depressed and hate the world?? well that's what i heard.. and why in the world are you hiding that you cut yourself?? lol i have scars and blood and crap all over my arms and nobody talks to me about it.. nobody talks to me about anything and those that do talk to me just talk to me about stuff that's not related to cutting or emo or that shit.. oh well idk what else to put..

[schrei jess]

cutting is not a high.. you can get addicted to cutting.. but everytime i cut myself i end up crying.. well i cry all thoughout the cut.. and aren't emos people that are depressed and hate the world?? well that's what i heard.. and why in the world are you hiding that you cut yourself?? lol i have scars and blood and crap all over my arms and nobody talks to me about it.. nobody talks to me about anything and those that do talk to me just talk to me about stuff that's not related to cutting or emo or that shit.. oh well idk what else to put..

Yes, cutting is a high, its like a drug - drugs are addictive, so is cutting. So you get a "high" from cutting, not an actualy literal high, but it can feel like a buzz.

And I hide it because Im tired of being called "emo" or "goth" and all this other stuff that Im not. And Im tired of being made fun of, I dont see how people think hurting yourself is funny...but I guess if you havent done it - You dont get it.

[mRojas2000]

I haven't done it... and I get it

[diStURbEd]

Do you know why you are doing this? Has anything upsetting happened to you, any extreme stress etc.?




Well...A while back one of my best friends tried to commit suicide...three months ago he really did.

Im always getting caught up in crap that I have nothing to do with... And It just everyones turning into a pain in the ass.

My parents are always fighting., my sisters life has pretty much fallen apart and she steals my money. I hate it so I hide in my room and pretend its not real
And basicly get high off of death.

I've tried to stop but I cant and I hate myself for it