I am so tired of dealing with this, after 7 years, I am exhausted!

[Fiending_the_freedom]

I'm so upset.

I have been so damn depressed the last month.

I feel like I am 12 all over again.

I feel lost, alone, confused, I'm not taking care of myself.



It's getting harder and harder to cope.

I'm managing to keep up the appearance of my happy self, it is getting a little tiring, because when I do get home I feel so empty

(see why I said I feel like I'm 12 again)

I am so exhausted of this.

This self destructive nature.

This empty feeling.

This sadness I have in me.

Therapy isn't for me, at least not at this point in my depression, I am not depressed over issues.

The only other logial option is anti-depressants to fix this unfortunate brain chemistry, but I hate anti depressants and refuse to take them.

I am so frustrated with the options I have.

I am going to start exercising a lot, try to get my brain to produce more endorphins.

But that will only help a bit, and will take a while.

For now I guess I have to deal,
I am just so exhausted.

[Quick_Sylver]

Did anything happen to trigger the depression attack?

[Sith Lord 13]

The only other logial option is anti-depressants to fix this unfortunate brain chemistry, but I hate anti depressants and refuse to take them.

Can I ask why? What is it about anti-depressants that you don't like? Speaking as someone who's been on anti-depressants for 7 years, I can say there's nothing to fear from them. It might take some time to find the right med and the right dosage, but once you do, it's going to help.

[Fiending_the_freedom]

I tried all kinds of different anti-depressants in high school and I just hated how they made me feel. It just doesn't feel natural, I know anti depressants work great for some people, but I'm just not one of them.

[DismaliciouSx]

I know this doesn't help but you actually helped me by showing me that other people feel the exact same as me.

[Antebellum]

Try excersizing like you mentioned. Do anything productive that wouldn't hurt yourself.

[RockstarRocks]

iv been depressed for 8 years im 17 now well its 9 soon.

[Fiending_the_freedom]

I know this doesn't help but you actually helped me by showing me that other people feel the exact same as me.

I'm glad I can help!
If you need to talk to anyone ever, i'm here!