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1_21Guns
November 7th, 2010, 09:52 AM
so I just found this on tumblr, figured i'd share it. I usually hate these things for some reason, but I like this one, so here you go;

Are you thinking about suicide? Thinking about how, if you killed yourself, nobody would care? Think again.

If you kill yourself you will change somebodies world. That's right. They will see everything differently. Just hearing your name will burn their mind with memories. They wont be able to go near where you lived, even your town will hold memories. Listening to the radio they'll hear that song, remember,that song you sang with them once? They'll step past your locker every day and wonder why you are not there. Why are you not there??

Do you want to be responsible for your family members, the people who love you, crying every night? For your sisters or brothers losing part of who they are? Your suicide is going to effect most deeply those who care about you most. That's not right. One of your friends may break down, and just like you, their world will be dark.

The pain you are in is awful, but why pass it on to hundreds of people around you, when you could try your hardest to work through it? Your family will be paranoid. Suddenly everyone will be talking about them. Do you want to be known as 'the kid who killed themselves?' People you never knew will be crying when they hear what you've done. Yes, they will be effected. Everyone around you will stop and think ;; "was there something i could have done?" Suddenly the people of your world are dying with guilt. All those little hints you gave, they'll remember them. Oh yes, and it will torture them all the time.

Your friends will think of suicide. Your closest friends are likely to go into a depression like the one that claimed your life. How will they cope, without you? This will break them, for the rest of their lives. And lets not forget the people who will plan your funeral. Your closest friends and family picking out songs for you, photos of you. Crying all the night before, and all the day of your funeral. And all the night after. In fact, they will cry now more than you ever did. Could they have saved you?

They'll be angry. Oh yes. Why didn't you tell them? They loved you. And now it's too late. They'll be angry with you because they know, they know you could have gotten through it. Then they'll be angry with themselves because they may have been able to save you if only they knew.

And one day, one day years from now, they'll remember you. They will all still remember you. The girl that sat up the front of your class; she'll remember you. The bus driver you saw every morning; he'll remember you. That little girl you sat with on the bus once, The kid you leant money to at the shop, all your siblings friends, the people that you dont see, but that see you everyday they will all remember you. And every single one of them will wonder; why?

But imagine your family. You are part of them. Without you, something is missing. If you killed yourself then part of them dies too. They are incomplete. Every family gathering will be missing something. The photos on the wall are suddenly all cold reminders of what you did. Who goes through your bedroom? Who cleans out your locker? Who calls the school to tell them one of their students has died? .. Who tells the students? Who calls the funeral directors? Who arranges a coffin for you? Who calls your best friend to tell them you're dead?? Who finds you? Please, there are other ways out.

I know sometimes the struggle is very, very hard. But it's not worth giving up on life. Life is all we have, life is everything. Its the beautiful moments, and the sad ones. Please, don't give up on all those around you. You can make it through. My teacher said this about her father, who commited suicide: "I understand that the pain is overwhelming, but I will never forgive him for the pain he has caused others. It was just selfish. If you kill yourself you spread the suffering among thousands of people, it doesn't only affect those around you but everyone who has ever come in contact with you."

Please, keep fighting. You can get through this and see that there is life after what you're facing now. It may be hard, but you'll get there, and when you do you will appreciate it so much more. I understand that most people know that suicide effects others, but please keep this in mind if you're ever feeling so low.
Give people the chance to help you.

:hug3:

Fiction
November 7th, 2010, 11:36 AM
Wow. I love this. Definatley makes you think. Thanks for sharing this Nat :)

whereismymind
November 7th, 2010, 12:01 PM
Its really good, gives you something to think about

enjoying_my_insanity
November 7th, 2010, 01:04 PM
wow...really made me think...makes me glad that im still alive...thanks for sharing this nat :hug:

Harley Quinn
November 7th, 2010, 01:25 PM
and this is why I love tumblr :P

Great post :3

Kaius
November 7th, 2010, 01:28 PM
I reblogged it from you :)

1_21Guns
November 7th, 2010, 01:29 PM
Glad it helped you all :)

and yes Aaron, I'm aware, emails tell me LOADS of things :P

Kaius
November 7th, 2010, 01:32 PM
Lol shush you

UnknownError
November 7th, 2010, 01:40 PM
Really makes you think, its quite upsetting to read, knowing that lots of people kill them self every day not thinking about what will happen to their friends and family.

Mike321
November 7th, 2010, 01:47 PM
Thanks for posting Nat, really does make you think

Azunite
November 8th, 2010, 10:22 AM
It is the summary of what we are telling here on VT, nice job Nat :)
And for those out there , :hug:

DismaliciouSx
November 15th, 2010, 02:30 AM
You say it will affect everyone? What happens if nobody honestly does not care about you whatsoever, they won't even know or care if they see it in the paper or something

Nevermore
November 15th, 2010, 09:15 AM
Natalie, this made me cry. It's true, because when your in that state of mind, you don't realize how it will affect people. I've been on both sides of the spectrum. I was suicidal a few years ago, I still sometimes struggle with the thoughts, but I know what it's like to have someone you love commit suicide. So I couldn't acutally kill myself, because I couldn't hurt my family and friends. My uncle last year committed suicide. I recently had my best friend hospitalized for suicide, and my best guy friend almost committed it. His last words before hanging up with me, after hours of persuading him not to do it, till 4 in the morning, where," i can't do this anymore, i'm sick of life, i'm sick of all this, goodbye." As you can imagine I was a mess during school the next day, I thought he was dead. Thank God, he's still alive, and still fighting. <3 I never thought when I wanted to kill myself, the affects it has on others. I've been there though, and now know how it can affect a person. For all those who are suicidal, please, I'm begging you seek help. You are loved, don't give up.

1_21Guns
November 15th, 2010, 04:27 PM
You say it will affect everyone? What happens if nobody honestly does not care about you whatsoever, they won't even know or care if they see it in the paper or something

you never know who will or won't care, or what impression you make.
some people care just reading about someone commiting suicide, even if it's someone they never even knew.
both through empathy, and just being a good person.
Just because people come off about not caring, doesn't mean they don't.

and Sammy, i've been in a similiar place, I've both been suicidal, and then had to wake up to find suicide notes and a couple of other things over the years.

It's so important to remember that it does affect people, and it's never the way out.

bvboy
November 21st, 2010, 04:45 AM
This is really good. Thanks Nat. I think people should really understand that suicide is first and foremost a selfish act, whether its consciously selfish or not, it affects everyone around you and you are not seeing the big picture.
Its may be hard to read, but it really is beautiful.
Thanks again.

georgiamay
November 23rd, 2010, 12:52 PM
:heart:

This is brilliant, I love it.
Thanks Nat :)

steve1234
November 24th, 2010, 11:19 AM
Thanks Nat. Definatly makes you realise all the things that happen once you kill yourself.

Although, there is one thing I feel I should mention. I sometimes think that If I kill myself, it might make people think they should of treated me better, and If I was killed by accident, it might not have the same affect of killing yourself. If I was accidently killed, people might just think 'thats a shame, im going to miss him', and just move on. Whereas If I killed myself, it might make them think about me a bit more, and they will wonder why I did it, and hopefully find out why I did it.

Yes, those thoughts I mentioned above are very selfish, I know that, but this would be one of the reasons why I would kill myself (which I definatly wont!), for attention and to make people feel guilty. The selfish part of me would like to make people feel guilty, but I will never kill myself as most people will think it was a stupid and incredibly selfish thing to do, and may not think of you in a nice way.

I'm just wondering if any other people have had those selfish thoughts, where if you killed yourself, it will make people feel bad and make them realise what they may have done wrong. I don't like admitting I've sometimes thought like this, but I have. :(

Charleigh
November 24th, 2010, 03:36 PM
wow thats pretty awesome :) x
love you nat :L x

1_21Guns
November 25th, 2010, 06:27 PM
glad it's helped you all :)

and love you too charlie :) x

RockstarRocks
November 29th, 2010, 04:02 AM
if i died my mom would care everyone else no. and i no this they would move on with their lives. my mom wouldent. im to afraid to kill myself so thats lucky i gess. i do think about killing myself im just afraid to do it.